Just let it go, you'll be fine

[Currently Listening: Don't U ever stop//Kat-Tun]

Wheee.

I finished Gokusen 2 already. Gah, i luffed it. The cast this season was wayyy hotter. I mean yeah, it's a given that Matsujun & Oguri Shun were hot on the first season but gah, this season, I totally luffed Koike Teppei, Jin, Kame and Hayame. xD. Squeee. Eh, it sucked though, i really wish they made this one a bit longer. It was only 10 episodes! Gah. And only Kuma appeared from Season 1! Gah, i was wishing Shin would pop out of nowhere. xD.

I don't even think i'm going to like Gokusen 3 since the cast is, well, not really that hot. Psshh. Eh, idk. Imma gunna watch it sometime and see for myself. Damn, i still can't find Gokusen 2 icons. I BADLY need them. T^T

And yeah, i'm listening to japanese songs again LOLOL. Eh, Jin and Kame are in Kat-Tun eh, i couldn't help it. xD. And rawr, i still can't find the subbed version of Special A Episode 8. Uhh, random. LOL.

Anyways...

I've been feeling sick for the past few days. Ugghh. I have this really bad migraine and this really really really bad tummyache. And i've been feeling so bloody weak. Like, i can't lift a single muscle kind of weak. So i just pretty much stay in bed all day.

What sucks more is that i've lost the appetite to eat. It's like whenever i try to eat something, i end up feeling like i want to puke it out. So i don't eat. Ugh. It's sickening.And my insomnia's getting worst. I wake up about 11 pm and then i sleep at about 2-3 pm. Ugh, it sucks. I friggin feel unhealthy. Damn it, i want to be friggin normal. T_T

And gahd, the smell of my hair just seriously makes me want to puke my guts out. Uggghh. I can't stand the smell.Idk why, but i started putting lots of random stuff in it like, chocolate, mayonnaise and milk. So yeah, my hair's really fucked up at the moment and yes, i've gone insane. xD.

Later, i'll be doing my back to school shopping. Idk why, but it sort of excites me. I like shopping for supplies. LOL. Seriously. xD. But that doesn't mean i'm excited for school. School is still the last place i want to be in. T______T

Kayy, i'm out.

Materialistic.

Gash. I'm feeling extremely materialistic right now. O_O

Random Wants:

1) Korean Hairstyle- Gah, i've been itching to get one. I just really find them pretty. I'm definitely going to have my korean haircut at Tony and Jackey's since they're known for being good at korean hairstyles.

I'd particularly like Min Hyorin's (From Goong) hairstyle. I find it quite simple and clean, just the way i like it. And it looks really pretty as well. I can just imagine me with it >_>

Here are some pics of her:

2) Black Hoodie - Gah. I only have one hoodie and i really want to keep on buying those kewl hoodies. I've seen lots of pretty patterns but for now i'd really like just a plain black hoodie.

3) Canon IXUS/SLR - My camera's seriously screwed. Like, totally screwed. When i open it, all i see is a blank page and that's it. I can't take pictures whatsoever. T_T

4) A new 20 GB iPod - GAH. My iPod's not enough. And it's really crappy now. The clicker maboober thing is so hard to click and it's nearly dying. And 2 GB isn't friggin enough!

5) New clothes - i haven't got them for ages already. Ugh. I'm so bloody tired of my same old wardrobe. I need new clothes for pete's sake! And my clother barely fit me anymore. Ugh. I hafta go shopping!

And trust me, those aren't even half of the things i want. xD.

I'm lost without your love

[Currently Listening: Low Screamo Version//Brokencyde]

Brokencyde's low screamo version is the shit man. I swear i couldn't stop laughing my ass off when i first heard it. I thought it was friggin hilarious. Well, i mean, come on, what kind of people do that? Only fags do. =))

So yeah, it's actually quite danceable once you get the hang of it. xD. Mhhhm. Hey, guess what? I found out Pj Valerio's friggin german. T____T Oh the friggin irony of it.Whatever.I am so going to get married to him during the candy fair along with Denise and her husband, AJ. LOLOLOL. =))

Okay, that was just me fantasizing. Eh, he's so awesome. He plays guitar, he's got a great voice and he's really cute and friendly so yeah, you could say i'm a fangirl. xD.

Screw that aside, my 2 week vacation has started. I'm not really feeling it, but it's alright. Same, same. Internet all day as usual. Gah, i wanna do something new. I want to go out there.I want to experience life, at least. Because right now, i don't seem to have one. :/

LOL i've been youtube marathon-ing the whole morning. I got addicted watching Britain's Got Talent auditions. Simon was actually nice in there. Seriously. xD. There's this little girl singing Somewhere over the Rainbow so heavenly and beautiful it made me cry. It was so innocent and pure. There were lots of hotties as well. So yeah it kept me sane all morning.I wanna be friggin British.Nyahahaha.xD.

And yeah, i did my usual prodigy video marathon. Siiggh. I really wish i was a friggin musical prodigy. But noooo. Which sucks, because when i watched those tiny 4 year olds play the piano so god-likeish (and could even compose their own pieces which is very impressive) i get disappointed with myself because i can't even friggin master canon which i started since december for christ's sake. Gah. T^T

Which reminds me of this video i watched: Pachelbel Rant. Hah.the dood was so funny. You guys should watch it. I also watched some of his other vids, they were funny as well. So yeah, stupid ramblings of mine.

Oh yeah, i was supposed to get my hair permed yesterday but noooooo. Those fags in that salon were all like, REBOND REBOND! God, i just wanted to go like, shut up! fuck off! Eh, they were srsly annoying. But gah, i can't believe i spent 900 (worth 3-4 weeks of absolutely no spending and no eating) over some dumb treatment which was so not worth it when they only damped friggin chocolate on my hair and that was it.I can't even see the friggin result. TT____TT

Now i don't know what to do with my hair. :/ I mean, i really want a new hairstyle because i can't bear another day with this kind of crappy hair i have. They didn't approve of me perming my hair since it would get more fucked up so they said i should just get it rebonded. I really would want to but i don't want to damage my hair anymore and go through the same awkward stage. UGH, believe me, i hated my hair all year long.I don't wanna go through it all over again. No thanks.

So yeah, i'm hopeless. T_T

Time can't erase a feeling this strong.

[Currently Listening: Always be my Baby//David Cook]

I kept on hearing David Cook's Always be my Baby on the radio during our roadtrip to Rizal and EK. My gad, it played for like, the whole entire time. So then i started liking it as well. Ahahah.

So about yesterday. Gash. Fangirlism at its worst. >_> You shouldve seen meh. I went nuts. xD. Seriously, i never knew fangirling could be so fun. Like, the obsessed kind of fangirling.

So what was i fangirling about? Well, we went to the Enchanting Teens Musical thing in EK so some HSM/Trumpets people were there. Didn't really give a crap about them, until PJ Valerio sang "I'll Be" and started serenading random people from the audience. Gash. I totally melted in my seat. I was hyperventilating like hell and my hands were shaking like fucking hell so i wasn't able to take a good picture/video of him. GAD. T____T

I totally fell in love with him right after. >_> Eh. I really love that song snd he totally put life to it. You should've seen the fangirls. They were INSANE. No, worse than insane. It was so funny though, we were all screaming our asses off because he kept on interacting offstage with the audience. Nosebleed! xD. Shiitt. >_>

Look at this:

Sunavabiiitttcchh. I totally died on my seat. He even gave her a kiss in the cheek!!! If i was that girl, holy shit. >__>

Screw the all the other crap, it was over. And guess what i did? I totally went onstage and asked for a picture with PJ. NYAHAHA =)) Dood, i was so fucking nervous. Sue me, it's my first time to do this. My whole body was SRSLY shaking and GAH!

I approached him, and he was so friendly! KYAAHHH. I might post the pictures at my Multiply, but it will only be for contacts of course. I'm not sure if will post it though. I was so totally in heaven during that moment. xD. Dood, he had his arms around me and his face was totally near mine! It was like, his cheeks were brushing against mine already! Sunavabiitcchh. >_>

That's not even the good part, i actually had the guts to tell him that i loved his "Ill Be" and idk if it was a delusion that he was holding my hands that time. Fucking seriously. xD. Idk ok, i was already on a high that time, i didn't know what reality was already so sue me. xD. GASH.

I tore away because the moment was just so perfect, i couldn't breathe anymore. HAHAHA. =)) After that, i was totally like, O_______________O

I couldn't believe i actually got myself into that. I'm so totally not going to wash my hands anymore. Seriously. xD.

So yeah, yesterday was totally major fangirlism. And gah, it was our Trumpets Recital thingie too yesterday. I don't really think i screwed the Trumpets Lady up, but i don't give a damn either, as least i'm finally free and these 2 weeks are finally vacation! WOOT!

Last Year...

UGGGHH. NOSTALGIAAAA!

Rawr. Yesh. You caught me. I couldn't help but live in the past, i guess. And my heart's feeling heavy right now. Why do i keep clinging to the past? Urgghh.

So i've been reading my old posts during the first few weeks of school last year. (This is in preparation for this coming school year, it's like my ritual before a new school year comes, it's like my way of letting go of the last school year and realizing what i've learned and crap like that)

UGH. I think i'm gonna start bawling my eyes out again. >_> But i have to do this.

It's funny how things can change in a year.

It's really weird how the first few weeks of school started out. Yeah, i kept on laughing when i read my old posts. Nostalgia. Siigghh. Gaahhdd. Time is so fast. And it sucks. :(

I was so pessimistic, emotional, oversensitive and paranoid during the first few days of school. I guess it's because i hated change and i felt so alone. I remember crying during the first few days of school coz it was all just too sudden for me, i couldn't deal with it. But as the days went by, i started to smile more and laugh more.

Gash. I love my seatmates. They're the best seatmates ever. I have Darren, Stefo, Alec, Kenzo and Joyce. They never failed to make me laugh, like, everyday. I was so happy in that place. It's like, the best place ever. I remember laughing my ass off whenever they played that Bato Bato pik game. My gad. xD. And those corny jokes they made, they were shallow but they definitely made me laugh. Those times they did retarded things and went on a high, my gad, i love those times.

High School during the first few weeks was like, absolutely, Culture Shock. Everything was just so different eh. My first day? I went nuts. I felt like a friggin midget. xD. And it was so crowded and hot. I still remember that day. It was really really weird. Like, O________O

And ugh. Yes, the fling thing. I don't even want to be reminded of that. Dx. I remember people calling me EMO. HAHAHA =)) They said i looked so serious and my bangs and jacket looked emo raw. Eeh, i was having problems that time ok?! LOL :))

And you know what else is weird? I thought Ms. Cadano was an okay adviser during the first day. Man i was so wrong. xD. I thought Sir Lee was like the coolest teacher ever and i thought Ms. Seba was funny but she actually wasn't that funny and i totally found Ms. Alli weird and our class thought that Ms. Abanil was a PMS disaster but she was actually one of the best teachers we have and Ms. Magpantay's accent was the funniest shit ever. xD.

Agggh. Stop this.

I don't want to go on details about last school year anymore. I know i'd break down if i do. I feel bitter talking about it. Just, ugh, Forget It.

There's no point in going back. Whatever, i totally dread this school year. I feel reluctant going back in there when it would only remind me of what used to be. Uggh. I doubt that i'd even last a second in there. I'm definite i'm gonna start moping and shit once i go through those halls again.

TT______TT

Everything reminds me of you

Okay, i'll make this quick:

I made a new thread in candy. It's called "The Lovesick Playlist" so if you guys recommend some good songs, then please post! :)

Click here: THREAD.

Yayyy. And yes, i am lovesick at the moment. Urggh.

So Leave the Memories Alone...

So...

David Cook wins American Idol.

Wooott. You deserved it, buddy. Seriously, when i saw him crying, i started crying like shit as well. I mean, the finale was just so overwhelming. Gah, i'd die to be in there. I'd die to see their winning moment live. It's like you could just feel the adrenaline, the tension, the excitement and all the other shit.

Gah. Anyways, I still love you Archuleta. :) Seriously, i've started rooting for Archuleta ever since the first time i saw him audition. Actually, i've been rooting for Josiah Leming and Archuleta, but Josiah Leming got cut off. It's quite sucky he got cut off, i mean, his Grace Kelly was amazing. But he was such a crybaby. xD. But it's nice to see his journey. He's doing pretty well now actually.

I'm quite moved right now. I've never actually been a fan of American Idol until this season. Waw, didn't know it could be this fun. Haha. LOL, It was nice seeing Renaldo Lapuz as well singing the We're Brothers Forever song. Siiggh. Nostalgia. Hah. I really loved his audition, it totally owns William Hung's She Bangs. I just kept on laughing when i saw how retarded it was. xD.

It's sort of sad seeing that this season's AI is over. It's quite suckish. I've been watching it ever since January and now, gah, it sucks to see it end. I guess i need to find a life right now. Haha.

Enough AI talk, i'm feeling sick today. :/

It's like, my body feels beaten up, like i went through a hazing or something. It feels like it's bruised. And god, the friggin migraine.Uggghh. My eyes are bloody sore as well. I just wanted to stay in bed all day and cover myself under my blanket sheet and sleep.

So sorry for not making it to Trumpets. I have a feeling Trumpets Lady is starting to doubt me already.I don't even know if the revenge thing would work out. Oh well. At least i'm done with Trumpets. I think. I just have to face my mom's wrath. Craaappp. >_>

And about yesterday's incoherent and vague post, Sheesh. Forget it. It was all worth nothing after all. Pssshh.

School's probably the last place i'd like to be in right now. T_T

Screwed.

Shit.

I did not just do that.

My hands are shaking like fucking hell, my mind's going berserk, my body feels numb. That was so unexpected. I did not see that coming.

I'll make this vague. I feel too overwhelmed and incoherent to even blog.

Shiiitt. T_T

Archuleta pwns.

David Archuleta PWNS.

So happy. Lalala. My American Idol's definitely gonna win this. Oh yeah he will. You the man (even though he always looks like he's gonna pass out anytime after the judges give their comments. xD. It's cute though. xD.) Archuleta! Yeah! Woot! xD.

Simon even proclaims him winner of ALL three rounds. Awesome. Best Ballad-eer ever! And he doesn't close his eyes as much as he used too! Nyahaha. Seriously, it's better if he kept them open. :) And he looks more adorable :)

Idk what made me like him better than Cook. I mean, if Archuleta wasn't in AI, I 'd definitely go for Cook. But then, idk, Archuleta just has that certain something. It's like he's so... gah. How do i put this. Idk. Just something. Something that makes other people like him. It's like he has this certain charm.

Crossing my fingers for tomorrow. David Archuleta's in it for the win, man. :)

You've got my head spinning, heart beating out of my chest.

[Currently Listening: I don't know about you, but i came here to dance//Forever the Sickest Kids]

It's another Tuesday = Twilight & Trumpets. Yeap. Pretty Much. So Trumpets was a burden as usual.I was actually 2 hours late.Like, what? Seriously. 2 hours. I didn't know we were supposed to be there by 1. Ugh, people never tell me anything. Ms. was asking me and Jebbie, "Why don't you know the schedule? Don't you have friends?" we wanted to say, "Uhh, No." LOL.

Run through as usual. I didn't want to screw up and get bitched around by the Dragon Lady so ugh, i tried to be feminine. I was being a girl for god's sake. >_> It's a relief she didn't really bitch me around today like the usual, and she wasn't embarassing me much either. Whew.

Whatever. Like, what's the point, geez, it's not like i'll be there during the play anyway. Bolo can just take my part. My only problem is the yearbook. GAHD. I need it. Jake's in there for the love of crap. I hafta stalk him. LOL. :)) Talked about Random Stuff with Denise and Jebbie. Yeap. Jebbie was being a nerd. LOL. Eh, she kept on talking about freaking algebra. UGGHH. Dx. Hahaha. Funny crap. We were also imagining what it would've been like if some hearthrobs from CSA would be in Trumpets. That would be fun i tell you. xD.

Gah, i want a blazer. I wish CSA had like a blazer for our uniform. That would be so awesome. I wish our uniforms were those kind of Japanese uniforms. Seriously, it's nice. We'd look so filthy rich in them. Hahaha. Or maybe Harry Potter uniforms. Dood, that would be so kewl. xD. Or like the ones on Gossip girl or something. LOL so random of me. :))

Anyways. I've sort of gone to my Back to School mode. It's like, about 3 weeks from now. I even started my countdown. Like, 20 days more or something. I don't really know, i'm not that anxious about it, like, idk, indifferent? Eh. It's so fast. I don't even feel like i was on vacation for god's sake.

After this week, i'm finally done with Trumpets. Thank God. Now i have 2 more weeks to prepare for school. I doubt that i'd even have time to have a vacation. Gah. Whatever. I shall have my hair permed and i shall have a facial at Denise's spa. Yessshh. I will be needing it before i go back to hell. :P

1 more session in Trumpets, then it's over. Thank God. This Thursday's my last day. Aaaww :( Hah. Hell Yeah. xD.

Let's start a Riot

So today.

I didn't know facebook could get so addicting. Like, @______@

Oh. I'm a music junkie already in the music challenge! Yeah! I hafta get to the Music Expert level! And Hah. I made a baby. His name is Jake Cullen. Yes, Cullen. And yes, Jake. I totally mixed up Jacob & Edward's names together.xD. I swear to hell, he will be one fine baby. I'm gonna make damn sure he's going to grow up HOTTER than Edward Cullen. BOAHAHAHA =)) He's gonna be one hot baby bumpire! Hah.

I also went to Glorietta today since my kuya invited me to watch Speed Racer with him and his girlfriend. On the way there, i decided to reserve already my copy of Breaking Dawn at National Book Store. WOOTNESS! Finally. :) We still had some time before the movie so I ate at Burger King. Wootness. :)

Speed Racer was weird and funny. At first i thought it was going to be a sucky movie, but it was actually kewl. I felt the adrenaline and gah, the race was so kewl. And i kept on laughing my ass off. It has this peculiar kind of comedy feel in it. xD. Gah, there better be a seond movie! The brother dood didn't reveal himself! And LOL. I was hoping to see the Twilight Trailer come out in the theater. Because if it did, i would, no doubt, hyperventilate like hell. xD.

Anyways. I'm going. I'll be facebook-ing. Haha :))

We can stay in this moment for the rest of our lives

I was actually in a good mood today :)

Why?

Because Trumpets Lady was absent. Muhahaha >:)

Seriously, I prefer Mr. Pedo as our teacher. Yes, he may be touchy (Oh, he was extremely touchy today alright) but at least, he doesn't go bitching around people, being a drama queen, or having a PMS disaster and massive mood swings. He was actually cool.

We did the usual run through, but we weren't as stressed and pressured as we were whenever Trumpets Lady was around. Mr. Pedo actually put the "play" in playshop since Trumpets Lady always makes it seem like "Hell" shop.

It was fun teasing AJ Perez to Denise. Wahaha. Her face is so priceless whenever she hyperventilates. xD. Dood, we should go to the Candy Fair. And she should get married to AJ Perez in the marriage booth. Ayihheee. xD. And she wrote Denise Perez on the Wall. She's insane. xD. I kept on talking to her about the fair yesterday and random stuff. She was screwing up on Anita. Haha. :)) I also kept on gushing about Jake, the hot guy i saw at the fair yesterday. Gah, i wanna see him again. xD.

Funny stuff, I didn't know Gan Gan was such a hearthrob in our class. He has diehard obsessed stalkers. And i know each and everyone of them ;) It's so funny since they always make me the bridge or the stalker for them or something. And it's so funny how they're so obvious. :))

So yeah, today was definitely a good day because Trumpets Lady wasn't around. :)

And about the Trumpets fair yesterday. The place was LITERALLY filled with Hot guys. Hot guys were EVERYWHERE! I swear, i was hyperventilating like hell when i saw them. xD.Some famous people were there too, Sam Concepcion, Cheska Ortega, you know, those people. But one guy totaly caught my eye: Jake. Yeah. I practically rubbed myself to him. xD. Mwahahaha. I didn't get a stolen shot though :(

Whatever, once i get our Yearbook, i'll totally get his name and stalk him. HAHAHA =))

Trumpets Concert was err, weird. I liked our place though, Front AND center. Nyahaha. We were so close to them. We were supposed to sneak in backstage but noooo. So yeah. It was like a party for the "it" people.

And gahr, AJ Perez was actually at the podium 2 weeks ago! Daym! That was Denise's chance to glomp him! Gah. Bummer. Whatever. They'll get married in the fair anyway :))

Oh, it's David vs. David in American Idol! Woot! GO DAVID! Hahahaha =))

i want to know whats going on in that pretty little head of yours

[Currently Listening: Is it Progression if a Cannibal uses a Fork//Chiodos]

Okay. I'll start this first with:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE

& ROBERT PATTINSON!

• Me & Dana were doing last minute gift shopping for Denise and hid from her


• Dana's stalker :))


• Justin in Canada. MY ASS. xD.


• Cakes at Sugarhouse.


• Andy being crazy. xD.


• Random stores.


• Kept on roaming around.


• Lomography with Mika


• Orville was weird and funny


• Justin was being Justin. xD.


• Craziness with Eliza and Andy in Fully Booked :))


• Justin bought Denise a shirt from Zara. WAW. O_O


• Grocery with Mika.Haha.


• Me and Andy getting lost in the Grocery. Checking out cheap stuff. xD.


• Some old dood checking out Jebbie. xD.


• Who apparently looked like Blair Waldorf. xD.


• Me, Andy, Justin, Jebbie and Orville in the cinemas. Mostly talked with Andy.


• Orville & Jebbie - Go Girl. xD.


• Then yeah. Everyone left na.
  

And about Trumpets today:

Run through. I gave Denise her present, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Haha. Trumpets lady's still a bitch. Well, she was worse today. She was bitching me around just because i was absent last time. She was totally singling me out! It was like, every single move i made, she always had to single me out from all of them! WTF! She kept on commenting on me and crap. Screw her.

Then gah. Fuck i was so annoyed. Butch. :(( Whatever, i'm planning revenge. Muhahaha. Yeah. I'm planning to ditch the recital. That's the worst thing i can do to her. I can just imagine how she's going to freak out that everything's screwing up at the last minute. Mwahahaha. Thinking about that made me feel better. Jebbie said she'd bring a cigarette or do the iTrip thing. Yeah!

Denise was so unfair. She left early! Rawr! Just because it's her birthday. Tsk. :)) In the middle of the America choreography thing, Trumpets Lady just snapped. Gah, she was totally being a drama queen. She effin walked out. Tsk. Go ahead, like we'd give a crap. Then the pedo was hitting on the girl who was crying because she thought it was her fault. Then pedo gave a little talk.

So yeah. Thank god, trumpets is nearly over. Just a week more. Thank God.

We end up hurting the worst, the only ones we really love

[Currently Listening: Inevitable//Anberlin]

So First, let me get this over with: I MADE IT TO THE SEMI-FINALISTS! YAY! Guys, if you think i'm deserving to win the Best Special Interest Blog category, then go and vote for Distant as we are... HERE.

Waw. This is so awesome. I actually made it. At least i was able to make up for last year.Haha. This is such an achievement. Yeah, i get overjoyed with the simplest things, i'm that shallow. xD. Oh yeah. Go me. Okay, i'm being self-absorbed. I'll stop na. Hah.

So on with today:

I skipped Trumpets today since i didn't wake up on time and i wasn't feeling well either. At least I didn't have to be touched by the pedo, or get bitched around by Ms. Diana. Yay for me.

And i'm reading this book, it's called, "Why Men Love Bitches" I've heard of it before but i never really got to check it out. And surprisingly, i found the book with my mom. WOW. I never thought she'd actually read something like that. xD.

And for the main part of today: It was effing stormy-ish and it was sooooooooo flooded in our street. We couldn't get home from mass because our street was blocked by the flood.

Guess what we did:

We rode an effing tricycle. xD.

Dude, it was so fun, i kept on laughing my ass off like hell. xD.Coz there were these "tidal waves" crashing so my butt was soaking wet and the waves just kept on brushing us off. Oh my god, it was so fun, man. You should try it. xD. And especially the hump part. Gawd. The hump was so high by the time we went down, we totally crashed. xD.The flood was about up to the knees so by the end of the tricycle ride, we were so effing bloody soaked. xD. But what the hell, i had alatafann! xD.

Yeah. Very fun. I wanna do it again. xD. Anyways, my latest ramblings/fandoms/obsessions:

• Yul is so adorable. I'd prefer him over the Crown Prince. He totally reminds me of Rui, i guess that's why i like him better. So yeah, i've been watching Goong. Very late of me. Yeah, i know. I remember my mom watching this every night, i would watch along too, but i never really got to finish it.

• Another new obsession? I'm drawing again. Lol yeah. I haven't done it for a while. A really long while. I sort of missed the feeling of making something so i decided to draw again. I've done about 2 drawings with Tsukimori Len in them. I have soooooooo much more to draw. I even printed manga scans online so i could have more ideas.

• And i'm getting into my otaku mode again. LOL yeah. I'm becoming a japanese/anime freak again. Hah. I've been listening/looking for good Jpop/rock songs and i'm learning japanese again. And watching more anime and dramas. Summer's my only time to do them. I hafta finish them all this May!

• Vampire Knight. Is so freaking awesome. Enough said.

Gah. I think i'm feeling a bit busy this May.But that's good, unless i go manic depressive. I just have so many activities and stuff that i want and MUST do this summer.

Anyways, i'm out. I hafta do more stuff.

the long nights will stay beside me no matter where i go

[Currently Listening: Think of You Later//Every Avenue]

So yeah i'm typing this in notepad since it's blackout in here.

I don't know how long this laptop would last since it's nearly low battery. Anyways, i'm fine with the whole blackout thing. The sound of the raindrops and thunder soothes me. And the room is completely dark and the only light in here is from the laptop.I feel quite serene and calm in a way.

So about today.

I was feeling off since i was sort of sick yesterday and i was feeling quite drained,and the fact that my insomnia's somewhat back. Yeah, disappointing. I thought i could sleep early and get up early for a week but it only lasted for about 4 days.But i'm still willing to try again tonight since i'm getting paid everytime i do. Haha. Yeah.

Since you all know me for being easily irritable and very moody, i got, idk, how do i put this, annoyed? pissed? idk. All i know is that Ms. Diana was being such a bitch today. She kept on bitching me around and singling me out, like, god.

I seriously am not fit for that I feel Pretty shit, i don't even get it why she put me there when i'm not fucking one of those who go frolicing around, like some girl on crack. She should know me well before she gives me a role.

Ass. Ugh. I swear, I feel Pretty sucked like hell. It was bloody torment! I hated every bloody single second of it. And i wasn't feeling well, dammit!

By the time i was playing Doc, i was totally on high emotion since she was bitching me around at that time.I just expressed my anger through Doc's role. Hey, it actually worked. xD. I was so pissed that my role as Doc actually turned out good. Hah. Real emotions do work. xD.

And yeah. The same usual crap happens in Trumpets. But idk. I've had this feeling ever since. It's something like being irritated or disturbed. With who? The people in Trumpets. (Except my friends, duh) Idk, it's like, everytime i go there my mood worsens just by seeing them. It's like, i dread it. I know, i'm such a bitch. xD. Gah. I just might be paranoid or something. Ugh. Whatever. I wanna skip, dammit.

I feel no need to be friends with any one of them. I mean, seriously, i'm better off with Denise and Jebbie. Yeah i know my classmates are nice but...ugggh. Rawr. Whatever. Screw it. I hate myself. :/

Love me tender, Love me sweet

[Currently Listening: Love me Tender//David Archuleta]

David Archuleta totally made me go O_O today with his performance.

He deserves to win American Idol. Hell Yeah. His Elvis Presley performance, "Love me Tender" totally got me. I fell in love with it right after he sang it. Now i'm trying to download his version of this song but its' release is still tomorrow. Oh well, tomorrow can wait.

But idk, they'll most probably release the one he performed in the show. And though that one he performed tonight totally got me, i wish he'd do the WHOLE friggin song. GAH. I'd die to hear it. xD. I want more from the Archuleta dood. xD.

I totally melted when he sang it. It's the darnest sweetest thing i've heard from him. Love songs totally fit him, he should do it more often; more girls would swoon over him. Hah. xD. It's like he was serenading me. KYAAHHH! >.< GO ARCHULETA! YOU THE MAN! YEAH! xD.

Hah, i'm such a fangirl. xD. Lol. So yeah, i only posted today because of him. I wasn't originally planning to post anything today. Now i'm even repeating his performance for like, more than 12 times already. Seriously. It's like it's his lullaby for me. KYAAHH! xD

Oh yeah, i have colds. It's been annoying me for the whole day. Rawr. But David totally made me feel a whole lotta better. :)

The radio keeps me searching for your star

Click me!


It's the Official Twilight Trailer Teaser! GASP! D: I can't wait for the trailer itself. It's near! GAAAHH! xD.

Edit//

[Currently Listening: As You Sleep//Something Corporate]

Back from Trumpets. Practice as usual. Jebbie skipped. Daang. Me & Denise kept on gushing about the Twilight Trailer. We've repeated it so many times we've actually memorized the lines. xD. GAAAAHHH. ROBERT PATTINSON'S BIRTHDAY IS ON THE 13TH! YAY! And he has the same birthday as Denise! Lucky butt! xD. I'll remember to greet them on my blog post that day. :)

Gushed about Rob. Hahaha. Can't help it. Sorry. xD. He's so shmexy. xD. TWILIGHT'S SEXY, MAN! xD. We practically spent our time gushing about random things. GLOMP AJ PEREZ! Boahahaha. xD. Yes. Denise is frickin INSANE. She's obsessed with him. Don't worry Denise, i'll find him for you. Or better, glomp him first before you do! Wahaha. Yeah. She was hyperventilating when i kept on making scenarios of Aj and her. Sooooo funny. xD.

LOL. It was so funny when she couldn't find candy anywhere. Aaaww. Haha. But thankfully she got the last copy at bufini. Hah. It's fate! xD.

And i was so hungry. :( We don't have breaks anymore, dammit. 3 hours of nothing but practice. Uggghh.

Blah. Anyways. I'm going. I'll keep on repeating the trailer. HAHA. I never get tired of it. Rob was so...SQUEEE! xD. I think it's 2 or 3 days before the trailer comes out. Not sure. Idk. I just heard. Whatever. The Twilight fever's getting into me again. >_>

...

Mothereffer. I'm so frickin' UUGGHH. EFFER.

They totally checked out my things. PRIVACY, MAN! I can't believe they just snooped around my things just like that. F-ing. ARGH. They said they were fixing my things and they were going to transfer it but fuck, WHY IN THE BLOODY HELL DID YOU TOUCH MY THINGS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION?!

RAWR. I have sooooooooo many personal stuff in there that's only for me to see. Dammit. I wish they hadn't seen all those personal crap i wrote and GAAHHH. RAWR. They even locked the door! ARRRGGGH! Seriously. They better not meddle with MY STUFF.

D:<

Let her know you'll never let her go

[Currently Listening: When I'm with You//Faber Drive]

So. The semi-finalists in the Candy Teen Blog Awards aren't out yet. YAY. :

Haha. Nevermind that. So i'll be off to narrating random stuff:

Trumpets. Is. Really. WTF-ing. Like, i really don't get the point of going there anymore since all we do is bloody practice over some stupid musical. We spent 3/4 of all our sessions all for the love of practicing. 3/4! And we only had 1/2 of all the sessions for the workshop itself. Like, rawr. Whatever, i'm skipping.

Yesterday wasn't much. Just practice of the scenes. Denise was finally gang raped. Boahahaha. xD. Doc is so hard to play. My part has to be high emotion. And Ms. Diana was so UGGHH. She expects us to be freaking proffesionals or something. Butch. I kept on shouting in the room. Like, WTF. Stupid Doc role. LOL. Emman was funny though. Gayyyy. Hahahaha :))

Random Stuff:

-I've been practicing Ave Maria with my violin. YAYYY! I finally get it! My bowing still hasn't improved up to now though. Gahr. Whatever. Yay me! xD

-Been watching Lovely Complex. I'm nearly done. GAH. I luff it! <3

-I got addicted to answering surveys. Proof? See my multiply.

-My Insomnia somewhat improved for the past 2 days. I sleep normally. Wahahaha. Then i wake up early. Yay me! I hope this becomes a habit.

-I had a dream last night. AND I CAN'T REMEMBER IT! Uggghh. All i remember is, it was a good dream, dammit. I was so happy in that dream. Now that i woke up, it just disappeared from my thoughts. WTF!

Gasp! HYD MOVIE!

[Currently Watching: Lovely Cmplex Episode 10]

TBS announced in August of 2007 that there will be a live action movie coming out in the summer of 2008. The cast will remain the same, but the script will likely be different. The movie, now called Hana Yori Dango Final will take place four years after the events of Hana Yori Dango Returns. Apparently now Tsukushi has new problems to solve. It was rumored that a third season might follow after HYD2, simply called Hana Yori Dango 3. However, in the end the producers decided to do a movie, in which will mark the end of the series.

EEEHHHHH?!

OMG. YAAAYYYY! I'm so freaking happy! Hana Yori Dango returns! WOOOOTT! I can't wait. I still don't know when it will be released. All i know is that it's during the summer of Japan, 2008. GAH! When the hell is that?! I can't wait! I think it's going to be released by the end of june. I think.

ZOMG! KILL ME! xD. I'll totally go crazy all over again for Rui (Oguri Shun!!! xD) GAHHH.LOL. Matsujun's eyebrows make him look...WAHAHAHA. xD. Whatever. He's still hot. :P I'm not sure but i've heard from other fans that there will be Season 3 on October? I dunnoes. I doubt it. But if that's true, then OMG. I'd die! xD.

I'm out. HYD's making me go nuts :D