i hope i dont regret this.......

Hey you.

I watched Strangers Again the other day (dude watch i swear!!!!), and man it really hit me which is why I'm typing this message down. I hope I don't regret this Hahaha.

Anyway, this line really got me and I just wanted to share it with you. Hope it's not too awkward, lol.

"I think… that if life separates us and we end up on totally different places, i’ll always remember when our lives aligned for this period of time… and I’ll be thankful for that. And I hope that wherever you are that you’ll be thankful too. And that’s the best we can wish for…"

I just wanted to drop by to say that I am so thankful to have met you, Gab. I don't regret a second that we were together. You made me happier than I've ever been. You deserve to be happy, Gab. Thank you for loving me. I feel so lucky to have been loved by someone like you. Thank you so much, Gab, for everything.

There are so many things I have to say to you, so many things left unsaid, but maybe we can talk about them all when we're both ready someday. I also wish that maybe one day, we can still be friends. I still want to, and I know it's possible. I really can't wait for the day when we can be cool around each other, no tension/awkwardness whatsoever and we can just laugh about the good times, and be better friends than we were before. I'll look forward to that day.

But until then,

I really hope you're happy, Gab. Please know that I will always care for you, okay? You'll always be in my prayers. I only hope for the best for you. I really can't apologize enough for everything I've put you through, but in the end, I still do hope that you were thankful that we happened.

Look forward to college, you'll have so much fun and I'm sure you'll find your Autumn, and I'll be happy for you.

HIS REPLY:

Hey thanks for that . It means a hell of a lot to me. And im sorry i didnt say hi to you last friday or talk to you i guess i was and still am not used to situations like that. Seriously im like the most awkward person ever. But yea if i see you again ill say hi and maybe we could talk a bit. IF im brave enough. Haha. And those pictures suck. Cause i look like shit in pictures. Just saying. I hope you're doing well man. And i know you're having fun and you're happy so im happy too.

serena

i wish people believed in someone's power and ability to change.

the past doesn't matter anymore

the person who i was isn't who i am anymore

what matters is the person i am now, this person right infront of you

the person im trying to become

the person who is trying to be better each day

the person who is learning and changing with each day

i have learned from my mistakes

and i wont let my past define who i am anymore

i admit, i screwed up

and now i am ready to be new again

if people could only give me a chance.......

lol whatever

You’re seriously still following me? I thought you could take the hint— that I despise your guts. Didn’t you even think it was me who sent you those messages? Didn’t you think I was passive about this? Wow, you are dense. You were a friend to me and I thought you were pretty cool until you used up all your friends for your gain. Your new friends may think you’re soooooo saintly, don’t they. But they won’t know what’ll hit them. Sooner or later you’ll get tired of them as you got tired of us. And you barely even notice it. And you’ll be saying, “I haven’t even done anything wrong!!!! WAT!” And if my assumptions were wrong and you actually knew what was wrong with you,then I’d further assume that you are a conniving cheat.

It’s a cycle, my dear, ex-friend.

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if i gave a fuck i'd reply but lol no, i wont even unfollow you bitch whatfuckingever :))

hay i dont even know what i did wrong to you man, did i even give you a reason to hate me? wish you could tell me but whatever also i got tamad to unfollow you lol thanks for reminding anyway....

also doesnt help that denise liked it oh wow

and i was planning to visit her in the airport tomorrow to say my goodbye and just finally fix things between us... wow people can be cruel

PS. Evil ex activated his facebook again. Goddamiiitttt. So angry. It was much more easier when he didn't have one. Bleh.

everybodys changing and i dont feel the same

feeling kind of glum tonight

found out that he deleted his facebook

meh i dont know it kinda made me sad for a bit

but then i think its for the best after all...

its easier this way

its better off this way

i guess it just kinda sucks thats all....

we're really strangers now

we've cut off each other from our lives

no form of communication at all

we're erasing each other

and im totally okay with that to be honest

its just sad, thats all

but i dont know, i still have hope that one day we'll be okay

and if not, then i guess it's for the best that we're both happy in our own separate ways

i have blocked him out of my life

and ive done the same to my "friends"

im all alone again and lost

im living a new life now

starting from scratch

i've left my past behind

but i know it will still haunt me from time to time

i've left everything that is familiar, everything i've considered home

im searching for new places and faces now, somewhere i can belong

i am a different person now

all this pain has changed me

and im trying to become a better person than i ever was

i am learning from my mistakes

i know i will be homesick from time to time

but this is just a phase

when i think about it, nothing really stays

this chapter in my life is done, and it is time for me to move on

goodbyes always suck, but new beginnings are exciting too after all

not all characters in my story were intended to stay, but i should look forward for the new characters coming along...

dan says....

well one

even if he did invite you, i doubt you would have gone

and two

youre way too good for that sorry ass shit boyfriend of yours

so correct me if im wrong but "backstabber" friends?

they were never friends if in the end they'd fuck you up like that

stupid bitches make me wanna kill someone

we got your back. your past mistakes don't matter to any of us, so you can go tell your haters that.

these days

-Ex has a happy crush on my gorgeous friend, Kar.

-Thanks to Jaime. I was supposed to meet him that day but you know, I'm nice. :)) I specifically told him not to make them meet! I knew this would happen!! Hahahaha. But eh whatever, its inevitable. :))

-Andy talked to evil ex without him knowing I was there reading the whole conversation. What a douche! :)) He's just like the others. 8-|

-"LOVE LOST, HAPPINESS FADED" Suck your fucking dick, asshole!!

-You don't miss me? K.

-My "friends" all hate me. Lots of backstabbing and hating on my formspring. Calm yo tits! Hahaha.

-So much hate they didn't even invite me to Denise's despedida but whatever, lol.

-Then I hear that my ex invites my "friends" aka people he's not even close with to hang out at his house this saturday. He invited everyone except for me (lol duh) I 'm sorry, I just found that so funny. My ex is actually trying to have a life without me? HAHAHAHA. Okay im so mean, lol. But I bet you it will be a FAIL. what fucking losers.

-Hung out with my ex's crush the other day. YES SO FUNNY AND IRONIC NOH. HAHAHAHA. Apparently he's been creeping her out. HAHAHA. you faaaaail.

-Hung out with her and felt AWESOME. Why? Because I'm so much better than her. ;) Goodluck nalang. HAHAHA. You just lost the best thing you've ever had, asshole. ;)

-Ex flirting with my friend on facebook for me to see? Desperate much! How low can you go?! =)) SHE DOESN'T EVEN RESPOND. HAHAHHAHAHA. YOU ARE FAIL!!!

-So much support and love. Gives me hope. :)

Wow, immature fucks. :))

I'm sorry but you guys have definitely reached a new low.

I've totally lost ALL my respect for you guys. =))

If anything, I think you guys have just lost your dignity. =))

Giving me the finger on roboto? Wow! How low will you guys go?!