back! :O

• FEELING JUNIOR. Yeah! Haha. It feels so frickin' awesome wearing that blue ID around, makes me feel so damn superior. I feel so angas and siga. Hahahaha. =)).
• INTRAMS/FATHER'S BDAY PRACTICES. Yeah, stupid sophomore pissed me off. Eehh she was such a bitch i swear, she wouldn't STFU! It was so facken annoying jesus christ! We were okay I guess, not that Junior-ish yet but we're getting there. At least we're better than last time. I loooveee the band! :D If only the juniors could make our cheers more awesome. Can't wait for the cheering competition! :O
• INTRAMS/FATHERS BDAY - Random day. Pretty much just bummed around. Ended up crashing Andy's house/Rockwell with her and Bianca. I couldn't get home since no one would answer the phone and I was broke! Andy had to lend me her sister's money to take a cab and I almost got caught! Phew good thing I saw my mom and yaya before I could walk any further. Thank God they didn't see me!
• Today. Oh nothing, TGIF. I'm supposed to be at Andy's again tonight but ehh, i got tamad na.

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WANTED:

• a SERIOUS study buddy.
• a SERIOUS study group.
• a SERIOUS tutor.
• a COMPETITION.
• an INSPIRATION.
• a MOTIVATION.

Now that i've gotten rid of all distractions and I have enough reason to study, i am taking junior year seriously. I really want to make something out of this year. I feel like I wasted all my years in school and it's about time I put things in action. I have so much regrets now, wish I did this, wish I did that, wish i started earlier on this and that. But I still have 2 more years here in highschool, I can't go back to the past, but I can control the present. Wish me luck, i really do have alot of goals that I want to achieve. I have so much energy in me, I am GAME, I WILL FIGHT. >:).

THE 30 DAY RULE/CHALLENGE/DARE:

I'm trying it out for a month and hopefully I get to make into a habit. I have a long list on my notebook. Should help me discipline and train myself. It was originally about getting over someone but then that came kinda easy i guess.

stuff.

> NO SCHOOL ON MONDAY, YAYZZZ. Moved to June 15, fuck yeah!

>RANT 1: I am so MOTHERFUCKING sick of always being that girl that they find pretty/cute but NOTHING MORE THAN THAT. I feel like BULLSHIT okay? Because looks will never get you anywhere. I feel like fucking bullcrap, you know? YES YOU KNOW. Vitwater you know? It's just that, I always feel like people only like me for the physical qualities, but never really who I am. If I was buttface ugly, would you even get the fucking chance to know me? I feel like they don't see through the physical features and yeah. It can get really tiring and annoying from time to time because it makes you feel like shit, you know? BITWATER YOU KNOW!!! That you can never be anything more than that fucking face. It makes you feel supremely shitty. When you're trying to prove so much yet no one really sees through it. And SO FUCKING WHAT if i'm one of the goddamn guys. That's just who I am. Take it or leave it.


>Rant 2: And when I do attract guys, IT'S ALWAYS THE WRONG GUYS. I'm only asking for ONE guy, jesus christ. Is that so hard! Why can I never get a guy that will like me back? I am just so goddamn sick and tired of waiting, argh.

>Rant 3: YOU. Why the fuck do you keep on popping in and out of my life, argh. Small world, small world. Just when...ugh. I'm just...sick of it, okay? At least for once, DON'T MESS IT UP GOOD GOD.

Lol my life. Yes just a mini rant/breakdown there.

Anyways I kinda noticed something with myself lately.

I haven't been really eating much. Seriously, ask the campers. I NEVER eat when I'm with them. And when I do, i barely eat. You can't even consider what I'm eating is a meal. And when I do eat, I HAVE to force myself. Like I really HAVE to force myself. I feel so shitty when I eat something. Like i cant eat it properly and yeah. I even feel like puking it out, and i feel disgusted with myself when I force myself to eat something.

Ack i dont know whats wrong with me! I just kinda lost my appetite i guess. Idk why tho. Its so weird. I lost some weight from it but I really didnt plan on losing some in the first place.
The campers/staffers ALWAYS have to force me to eat or they would treat me out just to eat.

I dont know wtf is wrong with me!!!

And i really want to try being a vegetarian..yeah. really serious.

Have so much to say alot has been happening but whatevs. School will start next week and life goes on. Haayyzzz. Aryt. See you when I see you.

I'M 3A.

OMG OMG OMG. I'm in 3A!
Thanks to Ellaine for posting. :)

So i'm going to be in 3A and my adviser is Sir Cruzado's wife i think. She's really nice so i don't see any problem with that. And my classmates aren't that bad either. The class looks sort of interesting i guess. They're alright. :)

And chiuie's in there! Whoo! Haha! My loner buddy! So at least if ever the class gets stereotypical and all we can chill again for one whole school year. LONER'S SOCIETY LIVES FOR ANOTHER YEAR! Woots! Haha! And Joey's there too! She's with us. :) I'm glad Chiuie and Joey are my classmates. They've been with me when I was a loner in class last year. I am so glad to have them for another year. Yay!

And Mmm. Justin's my classmate again! Woots! Haha! Reunited again after 2 years. I hope we can be confidante buddies again, yay. AND OMG ANDY!!! I was seriously happy when I saw her name on the list. YAY! I'm classmates with Andyyy! I can sense lots of fun with her. Wheeee!

And the class has some interesting people I still would like to meet and know. So yay me! At least my class is not as bad as before. Woots.

And as for my barkada. Well like what Nichie wanted, she's out of the Pilot class already. She's in 3J while Zhiela's in 3G and Loise is in 3E. Mia's...gone. Dayum. But whatever, we've been through this last year, what's another year? I know our friendship's stronger than that. :)

So I'm all positive for the year ahead. Yes it's the toughest year of high school but I know, i'll survive. I HAVE to reach my goal. Haha, Camp really had a huge effect on me. =)).

dayum.

MY SCHOOL IS FULL OF BULLSHIT UGH.

3 REASONS:

1) CSA SOCKS. WTF. : It's the most gayest thing I have ever seen. It's disgusting! Ugh! I can't believe I have to wear that shit around! As if CSA shoes weren't gay enough!

2) Our school's this MONDAY already, wtf! While everyone else still has a week of freedom, we're already in school! ARGH. Such a piss off!!!

3) I still don't know my section. THEY SAID THEY'LL POST IT TODAY. And wtf, celine even went to school only to find out it's still to be posted tomorrow! God, I don't even want to know.

4) And more to that, some people are making arrangements. I find it so damn unfair okay. We should all be distributed randomly and it shouldn't be planned, grr.

5) I just learned that if you fail a subject, you can pay CSA to pass you. WTF MAN. : That's just...wrong, okay.

So point is my school sucks. I still want another week of summer even if there's a friggin' thunderstorm, I don't friggin' care, OKAY. Goddamn, I don't want this summer to end! It's the best summer ever, seriously.

I'm too tamad na to narrate what's been happening. Actually ALOT has been happening. Dayum, this summer felt like the longest one ever, and it's been so damn eventful. I have so much to tell, so much to share, but I guess I'll just keep it to myself. Whopeee.

So today...

Went to go supplies shopping. Wasn't in the mood for it, just randomly picked up stuff. Bumped into Roshan! I completely forgot that he's already in college! Argh! It was only like yesterday when I met him when he was still a junior! And Sang Wa! They're both in La Salle now. Lucky bastards get to have another week of summer, rawr. Wow, i really am a junior now, and all my big brothers are in college already. Dayum. :/

TEEN EXPLORE ADVENTURE CAMP 6 IS THE BEST FUCKING THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

Seriously. You're missing half of your life if you haven't joined this camp i tell you!

I AM TOO FUCKING OVERWHLEMED TO EVEN FUCKING BLOG ABOUT IT.

All i know is that I FUCKING LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE ONE OF YOU GUYS, YOU ALL MEAN SO MUCH TO ME, SO FUCKING MUCH, AND SHIT, I JUST FUCKING CAME BACK HOME LIKE MINUTES AGO AND IM LIKE SUPER DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW NO FUCKING SHIT, I COULD EVEN CRY. NO ACTUALLY I WANT TO CRY SO FUCKING BAD RIGHT NOW.

AGHAGHAGHHHH. I cannot wait to see you guys tomorrow. Well at least some of you.

I will NEVER, EVER forget TEA CAMP 6. EVER. :(

I can't wait til' we're all completely united again.

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fuck im too incoherent right now. I can't express how im feeling.

Im PISSED, SAD, DEPRESSED,STRESSED, CONFUSED, EXHAUSTED, DRAINED AND FUCK IT IM SUPER FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW. :((

I wish camp never had to end. :(

I am going to blog more about camp soon, once i'm in the right mind. I'm still overwhelmed and stressed and everything else right now. Can't really think straight. Too fucked up for words.

I hope you all guys know that i love each and everyone of you guys so fucking much, and i miss you guys already, so damn much. SHIT SHIT SHIT i can cry now AGHHHHH~

....I'll see you all of you guys again....soon. :)

yesterday.

Counts for yesterday's post. I'm trying to make the most out of the internet while I still have the time, lol. Bullets since i'm lazy.

• Haven't slept since 9PM last Monday. I only got to sleep last night. So I haven't LITERALLY slept for more than 2 days, NO SHIT OKAY.
• Ended up just picking up each other in the morning instead of going to the park at 9AM, lol FAIL.
• Mia's Dentist appointment.
• Me and my barkada's future plans. College and having a business together, lol.
• Mia's mom INTERROGATING us. =))=)).
• Nichie's boypren, Gio. HAHAHAHA. And her diving stuff. She was wearing pekpek shorts. :>:>
• Getting lost going to each other's places and last minute screw ups.
• Me having terrible migraine and a bad bad bad tummy ache. Felt like i could pass out anytime.
• Eco Park. We only had 2 hours left before it closed.
• Only got to zipline which was pretty gay but it was different from the one in tagaytay. Was nice i guess.
• Biked. GOD FAIL FAIL FAIL. For one hour i was just there sitting in my bike, not able to bike at all. I tried but...yeah. HAHA.
• Went to Eastwood after for Dinner at Pancake House.
• Zhilea FAILING to buy booze in Seven Eleven. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Funny shit. Secondhand embarrasment for me dude, SERIOUSLY. xD. They asked for her ID and people were laughing AHAHAHAHA =))=))
• Omegle, Shat Brix, NigaHiga and youtube stuff. Bummed around.
• Nichie NOT sleeping over. :(

and today's not yet over. camp's tomorrow. will make the most out of my remaining time to use the net. haha will update once today is over.

SUMMER over the rainbow! lol

okay so past 2 days have been really batshit crazy. and well it's a friday night (saturday morning now actually) and im suddenly going on a nostalgia roll. well, kind of.

i went through my folders and found this confe i had during first year that i printed since it was so EPIC. i had that confe with stefo, marian and seej. it was really epic, since it lasted pretty long, til' the wee hours of the morning. and well, i don't know, it was really fun and fucked up at the same time. we were like hormonal or something that time. massive mood swings going on. No, WE WERE SO GAY. There. But it was really one helluva confe. We laughed, we got pissed, we got emo, we got high, we got racist, we got gay, we got green, we became personal and everything else all in a span of 7 hours i think.

the old me really made me laugh. i was really, really GAY when i was a freshman. like i was totally naive and i didnt know so much. you could even say i was immature, STUPID and annoying. good god. it's so different now, i've matured and i've learned so many things. and im not THAT gay anymore, haha. first year was really incredible, and i'll always remember it. but goddamn, i'm going to be a junior now. i have better things ahead of me.

and well i've come to realize that things change, and people change as well. i realized that i only liked his first year self. and i still do miss that old him from time to time. that guy that made me fall really hard for him. he has completely changed, even almost a stranger to me now. sure he still is the same guy i fell hard for, but those are only bits and traces of him left. i still talk to the same face, but HE's just not there anymore. the guy that i fell for. and so yes, i've made my point. people change and times change and i must move the fuck on with my life.

god im really kind of nostalgic right now. first year. WOW. it's been a year already! and im going to be a junior. i still remember that first blasted day of school. and the few weeks that followed after that. i remember the classroom, the people, the teachers and the feelings, emotions and experiences i went through...wow. and well school's around 2 weeks from now i guess. im not excited or anything. i have to work my ass off this year since its the toughest one. its just really weird seeing as how i started out in high school and how far i've come. junior year? it better be crazy, lol.

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and well today was just weird. timmy called me randomly and talked to me on my cell for like 20 minutes, no shit. i like random phone calls to be honest, it's a really nice surprise hearing someone on the other end of the line, even if he/she is away.

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~we are the summer girls~

Anyways, i owe you guys a BIG narration but im too lazy but trust me the past 2 days have been REALLY EPIC AND BATSHIT CRAZY! i could honestly say it felt like summer those times. and i cant wait for next week either if our plans push through. i would have to cancel on partying with timmy and celine, just so i can celebrate summer with my barkada at la mesa eco park. plus a sleepover. :) i really want to see them all soon. i miss them! and the diving with nichie at anilao thing isnt pushing through anymore since it's on a sunday. damn, i wanted to go to the beach. :|

so let me just give you a breakdown of what has happened for the past 2 days. Bullets, here we go.

• Zhiela driving the car while touring me around her place. Night drive around the fort! :)
  
• Getting lost in Parks and having photo shoots. Watching the sunset.
  
• Zhiela teaching me how to drive. I drove around her village twice. Night drive yeah!
  
• Stealing vodka from Mini Stop! Hahaha! Funny shit! And well, drank of course.
• Was supposed to play laser tag, but it was 170, not 70. We were broke, haha.
  
• Fucking with the people online. LAUGHTRIP. =))).
  
• ..And well we got into trouble because of that. Omegle said the FBI is going to track our IP Address and contact us within 2-3 days. We got reported for bad behavior. I was BATSHIT SCARED, OKAY. I fucking SHAT BRIX, OKAY. It was the FUCKING REAL THING we were dealing with!
• Met this guy in Omegle who PERSONALLY knew William Beckett, holy shit. And this other girl too who was in Barrington with him!
• Failed jogging in the park during sunrise, and watching the American Idol finale! :( Woke up too late for those, gah.
• Had a spontaneous trip to Tagaytay. So effing random, i swear! We're so impulsive. Out of nowhere, we were both just like, let's go to tagaytay today! and so lol we did! Haha!
  
• FUCKING ZIP LINED!!! That too, was very spontaneous, random and impulsive of us. But lol, fuck it, we were flying by the mountains! Had so much fun! HAHAHA. =)))).
• Went around Picnic Grove, photo shoot, trail, picnic (not really tho), cheated the people there, by paying only for two heads when we were 3, haha! Zhiela had to hide in the car.

And well too much shit happened, this isn't everything. I'm kinda lazy to think right now, haha. But it's been really awesome. :D

AI FINALE FUCK YA KRIS!!!

AH CRAP WAIT BEFORE I START THE NARRATION...

FUCK YA KRIS ALLEN WON BITCHES!!!! FUCK YA FUCK YA FUCK YA!!!! XD XD XD

Okay so it was aired around 8 am LIVE in here and i woke up like effing 12nn gah and i didnt even know today was the effing finale!!! NO IDEA MAN. eff it so bad!!! I NEVER miss the fucking finales. NEVER!!! :(

But anyways i got to watch the replay just now and omg krissss. i really expected lambert to win because he's everyone's favorite and come on, HE'S OBVIOUSLY FOR THE WIN. when it comes to talent, he's wayyy much more better. not bringing down kris or anything but it's pretty obvious that it's lambert who raises the competition to the next level right? and kris is just this laidback underdog dude who's pretty chill and you know, he just does his thing. and that's what i love about him. he's a fucking NATURAL for pete's sakes.

so anyways fuck me for missing the finale. FUCK ME SO BAD!! :( AI's like my fucking obsession sheesh. agghh. i so remember last season I WAS MOTHEREFFING HOOKED and i loved archuleta to effing death. i effing cried in the fucking finale!! It was that dramatic and i was THAT obsessed with AI last summer. but this season, i somewhat got bored with AI so i didn't really follow it as much as i used to. i hear updates from people from time to time but i never really had the chance to catch it. i've probably only seen 3 to 5 episodes this season im not even kidding!! that even includes the auditions!!

but once i heard kris perform i immediately fell inlove with him and i just knew he was my american idol. AND NOW HE OFFICIALLY IS THE AMERICAN IDOL!! congratulations, kris. :)

it sucks tho that i never got to follow this season. kara was probably a factor to that. LOL kidding. eh, i just got bored you know. and my mom's been hogging the tv all day, watching FUCKING BOYS OVER FLOWERS UGH, stupid korean shit. that's why i never get the chance to catch AI! :( i missed too many good performances. TOO MANY, GAH. sucks but yeah. :/

and when i watched the finale, i missed alot! i prolly only watched 1/4 of it! but yeah KARA FTW AHAHA BIKINI GIRL FAIL XD damn i loved that. SHE GOT EFFING OWNED!!! hahahaha and shit i still hate tatiana shes annoying as fuck. hahahaa. ah well i just have to say tho, LAST SEASON'S FINALE > THIS SEASON'S FINALE. i mean the result this year may have been shocking and dude wow 100 million EPIC, but last season when cookie was crying i was effing crying too. lol effing finale was ovverwhelming. i really wanted to be in the effing nokia theatre that time sweaaarr. xD. but ya this season's finale was..HAPPY! :) which is good, haha. kris looked so happy and stuff it was nice to see that. :)

oh lol i would so LAUGH if there would be a kris and adam concert here next summer OMG LOLOLOL totally deja vu man. like cookie&&archie part 2. oh youll never know :> haha.

okay enough AI i'll update this soon. past 2 days have been batshit CRAAAZZYYYY. it honestly felt like summer i enjoyed it so effing much! narration and pix soon. but im too lazy lol. oh whatever goes haha. =)).

countdown to school: 2 weeks? i dont really know but one thing's for sure. I DONT WANT SUMMER TO END YET I DONT WANT TO BE A JUNIOR YET

believe. :)

i'm at home now, alone. my brother's a tool so yeah, i didn't get my hair fixed today. ohwell.

anyways, i have been listening to david's songs non-stop for the past few days, even right now.
I can't get enough of it! I really love it. The record is really good and i recommend you to listen to it. :)

remember that gay day in MOA when I was waiting for david archuleta? Well they kept on playing his album on repeat and i've been there for 7 hours, so go figure, all his songs stuck to me. And i learned to appreciate each and everyone of them. i love his lyrics, they really got me.

david's visit here triggered something. he makes me want to fall inlove. he makes me want to find that perfect guy. he made me realize that not all guys out there are jerks. he made me believe that there are still some few good boys out there worthy to love. he really is sweetheart, a rare precious gem. oh if only i had him, i would consider myself the luckiest girl in the world, but i'm just a fangirl, sadly. lol. think about it, it's REALLY hard to find a guy who's sincerely, honestly and genuinely nice. he's such a sweet guy, gentleman. he's the perfect dreamboy for me. haaayy.

he gives me HOPE that i will someday find my own david (unless i'm really meant for him HAHAHAHA) he makes me believe that there's still such a thing as a perfect guy. i've been disappointed and let down too many times, and he's given me back the hope i needed. i know, there are much more david's out there. and i'm bound to find my very own someday. :) he makes me believe that there really are real prince charmings out there, that fairytales do come true. and that there will always be that boy who's not like one of them.

as cheesy as that sounds, it's true. i'm not kidding. : haha! okay so maybe i've gone beyond obsession. maybe i think too much. maybe i like him too much. but his visit here really made me think of those things, and he made me feel hopeful to find another one like him someday. :)

well listening to his record's been really nice. the more it even makes me want to find my own david! whenever i listen to his songs, i feel like im being serenaded by him. SUE ME IM DELUSIONAL. xD. but really now, those songs...they make me want to fall inlove.

here's some lyrics from some of his lovely songs:

Saw you from the distance

Saw you from the stage

Something 'bout the look in your eyes

Something 'bout your beautiful face

In a sea of people

There was only you

I never knew what this song was about

But suddenly now I do

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Reach out as far as you can

Only me, only you and the band

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can't let the music stop

Can't let this feeling end

Cause if I do, it'll all be over

I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop

Until I touch your hand'

Cause if I do, it'll all be over

I'll never get the chance again

-Touch My Hand

I fell inlove with this song the moment I heard it first play during the greeting in MOA. I can just imagine David on stage, serenading me with this song. Asking me to touch his hand. xD. BAHAHAHA. Sue me, i'm a fangirl. xD. Well, you all guys know me for obsessing on alot of musicians. And JUST IMAGINE if out of all the people in the crowd, you share that special connection with that boy onstage. It would be wonderful, wouldn't it? I know every fangirl dreams of this. TRUST ME. xD. If he combs his hand through the crowd and just picks you. Wouldn't you feel special? I know this is every fangirl's dream come true. HAHAHA.

Take me where I've never been,

Help me on my feet again.

Show me that good things come to those who wait.

Tell me I'm not on my own.

Tell me I won't be alone.

Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.

'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Save me from myself, you can.

And it's you and no one else.

If I could wish upon tomorrow,

Tonight would never end.

If you asked me, I would follow.

But for now, I just pretend.

'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

-You Can

I found the 'show me that good things come to those who wait' line catchy. It's what struck me the most. I just want to find that boy who would be really worth the wait. I don't want to sound like a damsel in distress or anything, but I just really want it to be great.

Sittin' all alone in your room
Thinking that the world's let you down
All you ever wanted to do
is trust Someone to always be around
You've had a lot of lessons to learn from
Some of them hit you so hard
And I keep believing that someday you'll see
You don't have to be alone

There's somebody out there
somebody somewhere
To show you the tenderness you need
somebody to hold you
When worries control you
I'd give anything if only you knew it was me
I've been watching you go through
All of these things for a while
There's gotta be a way to bring you back

Cause it´s worth it when you smile
It doesn't have to hurt you forever
It doesn't have to last too long
And if you're wondering where to turn to
I hope that you'll know

There's somebody out there
somebody somewhere
To show you the tenderness you need
somebody to hold you
When worries control you
I'd give anything if only you knew it was me

I wanna be there when you're in need
I would never be long if you were waiting
When you gonna see
If you could only see

There's somebody out there
somebody somewhere
To show you the tenderness you need
somebody to hold you
When worries control you
I'd give anything if only you knew it was me

I'd give anything for you
Anything at all
I think it's time that you knew it was me

-Somebody Out There

Oh God this song. :">. Well it's about to meeting my own David someday. I sure do hope he's singing this to me. HAHAHA! I wish. Well anyways, yes, this is the song that made me hopeful to find him, whoever he is. Aaahh David. :">.

You're reachin' out,

And no one hears your cry

You're freakin' out again'

Cause all your fears remind you

Another dream has come undone

You feel so small and lost

Like you're the only one

You wanna scream,

'Cause you're desperate

You want somebody, just anybody

To lay their hands on your soul tonight

You want a reason to keep believin'

That some day you're gonna see the light...

-Desperate

I took that which David Archuleta song are you test on Facebook and I got this. I'm desperate. Oh really now? Haha so maybe I am. But whatever. xD. I love the chorus part especially. :) It means alot to me.

Memories

Supposed to fade

What's wrong with my heart?

Shake it off, let it go

Didn't think it be this hard

Should be strong

Moving on

But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide

What I feel inside

And I turn around

You're with him now

I just can't figure it out

Tell me why

You're so hard to forget

Don't remind me

I'm not over it

Tell me why

I can't seem to face the truth

I'm just a little too not over you

-A Little Too Not Over You

Oh, this song. :. Well, haha this kind of tugs a certain heartstring when I hear it. It was that phase when I was thinking twice about things and doubting my feelings. Damn this song. =)))).

Why do I keep running from the truth

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

And I just got to know

Do you ever think

When you're all alone

All that we can be

Where this thing can go

Am I crazy or falling in love

Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath

When I look at youAre you holding back

Like the way I do

Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away

But I know this crush aint goin away

-Crush

Well this is also for that stupid phase I went through. I even included this thing in my "poem" on my tumblr, Yesterday's Feelings. I thought my crush still hasn't faded so yeah.

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Okay so if I keep going on, i'd probably put each and every one of his songs up here. Hahah. I just love all of them! So go listen instead and feel hopeful to find your own david. :)

exploring the hood'

well. today was nice. :)

so i slept around 7 am since i watched benjamin button. my gad is brad pit fiiinneee~ haha. woke up 12, just in time thank god. met zhiela at my place 1 pm. it was so funny because i knew she was just inside the car infront of the lobby but she didnt want to go out. hahahaha. :))

so she finally went out lol. well she doesn't really look that fat, really. and her bangs actually look good tsk. haha. daanggg i missed her lol. we were just laughing at each other haha. and then got the rackets from my house. went up the roofdeck to play but it was just FAIL haha it was so windy eh. we really dont know how to play badminton anymore so we decided to just walk around already.

so yeah, explored the neighborhood. we walked for like 6 hours man. hahaha. we really excercised. =)). so we went to waltermart first, just passed by, then walked to the park there. mmm. then rested. it was hot eh. well we mostly just talked and walked the whole time, lol.

mahahaha me and my retarded shades. zhiela srsly looked like she was wearing makeup wtf =))

mmm then we walked to greenbelt, she bought me froyo yogurt! mmm. :> thanks zhiela! haha she actually has money now lol =))=)). so we hung out there at gb5, hobbes and landes. its a cute place i like the toys in there lol.


and then we talked more planned some things. i hope they happen. :) sucked tho that nichie couldnt come, gah. :\ talked more, and she told me about her experience in the US. wow what a lucky bitch. hahaha!
after that we walked more, around the ayala place with all those buildings, call centers and 24 hour fast food restaurants. that was cool. hahaha.

i actually got to walk under that tunnel thingy! finally! hahaha.

and then we went to this park thingy there. there was another park and lol it was funny. LOST. ahahaha. funny shit. =)). we werent allowed in there actually. it was so messed up there. haha.

and what's so funny is that after all the tiresome walking, we just crashed jollibee. went in, got a glass, drank water, asked for tissues and left. HAHAHAHAA that was so funny. we're so squatter lolol.

went back to greenbelt, then to glorietta. walked back and forth, i dont really know. all i really know is we walked alot and talked alot the whole time hahaha. then jewella! haha!

and then we walked back to my house and it was almost sundown. stopped by the park again, only on the other side of it. sat to rest and chilled. then walked back to my place, she met my mom and brother lol, got some money, ate at karate kid in waltermart, got our jewella picture recopied! yayyyy.

we talked and zhiela left around 7pm. yesss. so that ends today. :)

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Im really wishing all of our plans push through. Really stoked for this wednesday at her place. we be having so much fun! \:D/. we had so much plans and stuff we wanted to do. like paintball. DEFINITELY. and laser tag! gahhh. and also riding her motorcyle. sheeiitt. and also driving the car around the fort! hahaha she did it once she can do it again lol! im excited to learn how to drive. wheee. hahaha. and omggg. our barkada should totally go to la mesa dam park!!! shit ya!!! we're really hoping it pushes through. it would be so much fun there, we'd have a picnic, a summer shoot, and we'd ride this boat in the lake, then play some games/sports, paintball, go around and stuff. sheeeiitttt!!! sounds good to me! xD. and sheiittt. i also hope me and zhiela can go with nichie to anilao for her diving lessons!! fuck ya!! we're serious. we want to see her in shorts and we want to see her dive AHAHAHAHA. dude, fuck, we're going to the beach!!! gahhhh. i really wish all of these push through. and the back to shool shopping together! lol.

just gahhhhhhhh. :|

cookie&&archieee!!!

I LOVE YOU ARCHIEDARLINGGG~!!!!!
SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. XD. HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay. SO. Narration. For yesterday. Mmmm. :>

So went to Greenhills, Annapolis for my dance lessons. Turned out, there were no lessons. Wtff. O_O. Well yehh, it starts June 6 pa pala, wtff. So went to Greenhills, ate then went to MOA. It was traffic on the way there. I came there 5pm, Touch my Hand was playing when I went in! Yiheee. Haha! Waited for nichie. She was an hour late but it's fine. I was like screaming when I saw her, HAHAHA. She was with her mom and sister. WTF, Her sister's as tall as her na WTF! HAHAHAH. Then yehh, her mom and sister left us. HOLY FUCK DUDE. I screamed even more when i realized she was wearing shorts. Puta dude, SHORTS!!! AHAHAHAHAH. Fuck, i just really couldn't believe it. NICHIE WAS WEARING SHORTS!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAH. =)). I still can't get over that, lolol.

Then grabbed something to eat. Hahaha. Was fun to talk to her finally. She has diving lessons this monday in makati, near my place, so i hope i could get her to hang with me and zhiela that day. Mmm. Yesss. Ate then got lined up. HAHAHA. Shit man. So yeah, those big security guards and bouncers were inspecting our stuff before getting in. And puta dude, i got so fucking nervous tangina! Hahaha. Shet yan. So me and nichie had to finish our food because theyse guards were such douchebags to us. Ugh.

So anyways, when the guards were inspecting my bag, i got SO FUCKING NERVOUS. Eh, the guard was such an asshole to me! Hahahaha. Tangina. He saw my binocular and he said it wasn't allowed raw, WTF! Even my ballpens! I kept my camera in this SM plastic bag so I could pretend i bought something. Then pucha dude, he was like looking through it! WTF!!! I thought he'd just ignore it but he didnt! Effing hell, he was like really touching the things inside it and then he even asked me what was inside it! I was just like, HOLY SHIT inside my head and I was freaking out!!! Right after he asked me, I was stuttering when I answered him! I was like uhh...uhhmmm...sunglasses. Then he said BAWAL TO. Ay shet!!! Hahaha I was really flipped out that time because i couldnt go inside! Then after he said he was kidding lang raw. TANGINANG YAN!!! HAHAHAHA =)). Shet naman, he gave me a heart attack over nothing. What a fucker, hahahahaha!!! =))=)).

So ayun, me and nichie were in the middle, near the barriers. Dude, it wasn't even that far, seriously! For an open ground concert, we were pretty near! SRSLY! Compare it to the Rihanna/Chris Brown concert, we'd probably be in the Gold place! We weren't that far! We talked so loudly, we were like the noisiest there and everyone was just looking at us hahaha.

There were fireworks then OMG it soon began. SHEEEETTTTT!!!! XD. David Archuleta pops out onstage and starts singing touch my hand. FUCK I LOVE THAT SONG!!!! XD XD XD. Then everyone screams and fangirls, haha me and nichie were so fucking noisy. xD. AAAHHH FUUUUUU- DAVID WAS SO FUCKING ADORABLE I COULDNT STAND IT AAGGGHHHH XD XD XD. Then Nichie would like shriek and fangirl like hell everytime he giggled/laughed. PUTA ANG CUTE TAE. UGGGGHH DAAVIIIDDD XD. He serenaded us all, Mmmm. :> :"> Basta yung buong audience kinilig ng todo, SHET! HAHAHAHA!

And he sang Stand By Me/Beautiful Girls, the one her performed in AI. Pamatay!! Hahaha, grabe, I felt like fainting when he was like ~And all you beautiful girls~ and he was pointing to each and everyone of us. hahahaha fuuuuuuuuuu- xD. Swear, he was giving me a heart attack. I LOVE YOU DAVID SO MUCH!!! He even sang A THOUSAND MILES! Daym, i saw that video of him on youtube! And he played the piano twice! Eeeeeeee :x Sucked tho, i didnt get that video of him whistling! THAT WAS FLIPPEN CUTE!! AGGGHH. And he was jumping around, dancing, ahhhhhhh fuuuuuuuuuuuu- BASTA. DAVID WAS SO CUTE!! He said Salamat, lolol. Then he leaves us all with crush. AY. haha! Then interval, another fireworks show and it's cookie time! This time me and nichie were even nearer to the barrier! yeehhh! xD.

And maaaannn it was amazinggg. The whole concert was fucking funnn. agghh. Cook was really cool. Fucking awesomeeee. Like his songs were fucking hardcore heavy man. The type of punk music you'd blast out in your bedroom and you'd like air guitar to it. It was so fucking hardcore awesome shit dude! I was like bopping my head the whole entire time. And fuck, if i were in the titanium seats, I WOULD SO BE MOSHPITTING TO COOK!!! Fuck ya!!! And his band was like REALLY into it and feeling it. Talagang concert na concert siya. It was an awesome night. And the night sky was prettyyy~ Haha yeah! Definitely a summer night to remember! It somehow reminded me of Urbandub's First Of Summer. The vibe and atmosphere was great! There we were, an audience of about 10,000 plus, Cook and his band blasting out heavy loud music in the open ground, and there were stars in the sky and we were out there, beside the bay. It was perfect. The night was greattt!! BAHAHA he said Salamat =)) Why don't they ever say Mahal Ko Kayo? HAHA!

And LMAO there were these people throwing shit into the crowd haha! like pure feminine wash wtfff! and even posters! nichie got one because she wanted one so badly. TOO BAD IT'S NOT ARCHULETA IN THE POSTER! >:). NYAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Then the finale, tangina i wanted to cry!!! :(( :(( His last song was 'A Daily Anthem' and he dedicated it to his late brother and for the audience. Sheeeiiittt! Then banda sa may dulo, he welcomes Archiedoo back into the stage and both of them were making us all wave our hands in the air and we really did! all of us! it was AMAZING,INCREDIBLE! Like, that last part, talagang nakakaiyak shet. From the loud music blasting, it totally went acapella. TOTALLY NO MUSIC. And EVERYONE was waving their hands in the air, and we were ALL singing, ACAPELLA ha and mann it was awesome!! We were just humming the tune and waving our hands in the air and gahhh it felt so fucking awesome! Then they finish the song...and leave :(

Sheeeiitt. Haha. Super wasak kami ni Nichie right after. xD. Not bad for her first concert! HAHAHA! And she actually didnt hyperventilate! LOLOL! We planned on going to the titanium seats by faking it. NYAHAHAHAHA. FAIL. Then Nichie had to look for her mom and stuff. Then when we went backstage ALOT of people were there waiting for cookie&archie to come out. I waited for a bit but i think they left already so yehhh. Ayun. Soon saw her family, rode their car, waited for my mom and left. LOL what was funny was when i was leaving touch my hand was playing again. wtf haha!

THEN PAKSHEIITTT DUUUDEEE!!! :(( I MISS THEM NA!!! :( :( :( Best thing everrrr. They've OFFICIALLY made my whole week! They were seriously the highlight of my week. CONCERT HANGOVER AGGGGHHHH. Sucks. :/ DAVIDDDDDDDD!!! :(( I really wanted to cry. I was like teary eyed and shit. HAHAHAHAHAHAH. Shet. Too much of good thing. Eto pa yung nakakaiyak, Archudarling made us a video just right after the concert!!! FUUUUUUUUUUU- Grabe i wanted to cry that time AHAHAHA. Ehhh, he really made a video for the filipino fans because he really loves us!!! I'm just SO GLAD, SO FUCKEN HAPPY that he really enjoyed his stay here! He really did! ASDFGHJKL :| I'm glad the feeling's mutual. :> NYAHAHAHA.

I've been playing it on repeat for like how many times na. Haha. And it gets me each and every time. I love him so much. He's honestly the most genuine person i've ever known. He's really really nice, sweet and all. GODDAMN HE'S PERFECT!!!! He's my fucking dream boyfriend, goddamn it!!! I would DIE if i actually have him as my boyfriend. SERIOUSLY!!! He's like a fucking ANGEL, HAHAHAHA NO SHIT!!! Ah. Crap. Words can't express how amazing he is. Seriously. The guy is too perfect, HE CAN FUCKING OWN EDWARD CULLEN, ANY FUCKING DAY.

Ok, i really should stop fangirling. Haha. Concert hangovers will always suck alot but i have to move on. Haha. I'm looking forward tomorrow. :) Day out with my bestfriend, in the hood fuck ya!!! :D

Oh here's some additional info i saw:

David Archuleta rocked the audience and performed the following songs:

1. Touch My Hand
2. Barriers
3. A Little Too Not Over You
4. You Can
5. My Hands
6. Your Eyes Don't Lie
7. To Be With You
8. Don't Let Go
9. Waiting for Yesterday
10. Stand by Me/Beautiful Girls
11. A Thousand Miles
12. Angels
13. Zero Gravity
14. Crush

A twenty (20) minute break ensued, and shortly before David Cook kick-started the show, most, if not all, ticket holders and ushers were called out of the concert area as a time bomb was said to be found within the vicinity (my guess it that the audience doesn't know anything about this). We couldn't contact Nikko, who has left his post and ran off to watch the whole concert, even after so many tries. Tsk tsk...

When we returned, many fire trucks and ambulances were parked just outside the concert, waiting for any emergency situation that might take place. Fortunately, nothing bad happened, and the show went on with David Cook singing the following songs:

1. The World I Know
2. Heroes
3. Mr. Sensitive
4. Declaration
5. Life on the Moon
6. Always Be My Baby
7. A Kiss on the Neck
8. Straight Ahead
9. Make Me
10. Avalanche
11. Little Lie
12. Come Back to Me
13. Light On
14. A Daily Anthem

It was a shame that he didn't sing his winning song "Time of My Life." I guess most of the audience were disheartened. David Archuleta joined in the singing of the latter part of "A Daily Anthem," which Cook dedicated both to his brother and to the audience.

And so the concert ends with a bang with cameras and interviewers waiting just outside the set.

hey-ohhh.

oh hai there. :D.

mmm. well yesterday night/morning i wathced HEROES. :> I'm hooked already, haha! I started pretty late but whatev. Peter Petrelli! <333.> He's so shmexyyy~ Haha! =)). Then yesss. I still have alot of DVDs to watch. And the list of movies i have to watch just keeps on getting longer and longer. Hopefully i'd be able to finish em' all this summer. :D

Sooo. Today. Well felt like oversleeping so i did, lol. Woke up around 1:30 pm. Mmm. Had no plans on watching Cook on Eat Bulaga eh. Haha! =)). Mmm. Well David didn't twitter much today. =/ He's been really busy. He had interviews and rehearsals today. TOMORROW'S THE CONCERT! It sucks because i'm at the back. :/ ohwells. at least i have nichie. :)

and today's also supposed to be the whole EK/Sleepover thing/ Sleepover at Zhiela's but yaaa. Ohwell. Haha! It can wait. And next wed. can wait too. :) So today we went to High Street for some afternoon walk. Yesss. Mmm. I texted Zhiela just in case she'd be there so I could see her but she was in Glorietta. Daaangg.

Well we walked around and stuff. It was such a nice day! The weather was really good and The Fort looked so pretty~ I kinda wished I was hanging with my friends for an afternoon walk around the fort, and we'd have this summer photoshoot in there. Daangg. Haha. Next time thennn. :D. Mmm. I gots new havaianas! They are so prettyyy~ They're these green slippers with straps. Yay. 2 new footwear for me this week! HOW AWESOMEEEE. \:D/.

We ate in Krispy Kreme and Starbucks. I gots all the donuts I wanted. Harharhar. I also saw Kenzo there along with his skater friends, wtfff. I ate turkey today btw. It's this sandwich in Starbucks. It taste weird and good at the same time. Hahaha. =)). Nothing much. All i can say is this could've been a really good day to hang out with my barkada. The weather was nice, and the place was absolutely wonderful. We could've done so much fun stuff together. Ohwelll.

Then here i am right now. Am so happy. My desktop looks so flippen' sweeettt! xD. Im loving my desktop icons! Theyre so cute! Theyre creatures. Mmm. :D. I downloaded Safari too and im so amused haha. DAANG I WANT A MACBOOK SO BAAADDDD :(( ill still be trying to upgrade/pimp up my laptop and making it look prettier and stuff. :D

Mmm. Just so STOKED for TOMORROW and NEXT WEEK! :D

Tomorrow - It's the concert and I get to be with Nichie! I may be far away from Archiedoo but it's fine, i have Nichie to fangirl with from afar! Haha! That'd be fuuunn. We'd be the noisiest in the back. xD. And my dance lessons!! They start tomorrow. I don't know what to expect, but it sure as hell better be fuuunn! :D. I also hope i gain new friends there, gahhh. In the morning my mom and brother would be going to gym. I hope i can tag along, I really want a morning walk. Should be good. They might walk from our place to slimmer's world. I want to go to the gym!

Monday, I'm SRSLY RLY EXCITED. I finally get to do what i've been wanting to do for a long time. Imma be playing badminton with zhiela at my place and we be chillin' at waltermart, cinemasquare or somethinggg. I also plan on exploring the neighborhood with her. RLY excited for that. Hell yesss! I want to go to that park near Greenbelt with her and have a photoshoot. xD. And i want to walk around the Ayala/Greenbelt places with her. That place with all those tall buildings, call centers, offices and stuff. xD. I SERIOUSLY want to explore the whole neighborhood and we'd just walk around and take pictures and discover places and stuff. That'd be fuuunn. xD. Then maybe at night time we can go to the rooftop and look at the city at night, go stargazing and stuff. WONDERFUL. xD. The only thing that could possibly destroy that day is the weather. I AM WISHING/PRAYING/HOPING it doesn't effing rain that day. Because if it does, THAT WOULD BE SUPREMELY SHITTY.

Tuesday, I get my hair done! :D. Yayyy. xD. I'll be spending the whole day at the salon getting it straight. I'll cut my hair shorter again. Nyahaha. I still want to cut it shorter. My hair's still pretty long. It's not like the hairstyle i wanted. Must be shorter. Mmm. With those side swept choppy bangs. hell yesss. :D. Then maybe get to hang around Cubao with my brother and tito. Should be nice. I hope i score some stuff. WHEEE. xD. Haha.

Wednesday, I sleep over at Zhiela's place! WOOTS! We be riding her motorcycle and roaming around her village. Should be really fun since she lives in the fort. HELL YESSS. I hope we get to walk around the fort and have summer photoshoots and stuff. xD. SHE WILL BE DRIVING. YES. SHE WILL. And she's gunna teach me how to drive! HAHA! Rly exciteddd. Then we're planning on buying some vodkas. YAY. DRINKING. FINALLY. I've been really craving for some strange reason. Not planning to get drunk, nor tipsy. BAHAHA. Unless i don't really have high tolerance for alcohol, lolol. Can't wait to see her. She's fat na BAHAHA. She's fatter than me by 2 pounds!! WTF! Haha! See what America does to youuu. :> And she has sucky bangs na raw. NYAHAHAHA. I will so laugh at her the minute i see her. And she be laughing at my hair. xD.

Thursdayyy. Mmm. No plans. Should be a rest day after getting back from Zhiela's. :) I'm planning to catch up on all the movies/dvds. Finish HEROES probably. Then I BETTER read some books. I've put them off for such a long time na. I have a feeling i'd still be hanging out with Zhiela for the whole day this day. Hahaha.

Friday. I'm not sure if Denise' birthday thing is still on but if it is, then i think it's on this dayyy. I still don't have a gift for her. Crap. It's so hard being broke. >_>. If not, then yes, rest day for me. :)

Then on the 27th, party at celine's place. WITH MEH DRINKING BUDDIES TIMMY AND CELINE LOLOL. xD.

On the 31st, I go to this fashion event. wtfff. like, a REAL runway show. my brother's gf's tita's a designer so yeeehhh. HIGH CLASS SHET. xD. the attire's fashionably chic. wtf is that??? Idk what to wear. there be a runway show and a cocktail party. sheeeittt. idk what to wear but ill just rely on lookbook for ideas. haha. xD.

i still have alot of plans and things to do. i really wish we get to celebrate nichie's birthday and have a summer barkada outing!! school's near naaaa. i havent even gone shopping for supplies lol. that's for me to do on JUNE. xD. and i still need those CSA socks, crap.

Anyways. Going now. TOMORROW NEXT WEEK FUCK YA!!! :D

OMG DAVID! <3.

DAVID. ARCHULETA. IS. SO. FUCKEN. ADORABLE.
GODDAMN!!!! XD XD XD

So I just woke up like literally 10 minutes ago, and guess what I woke up to? Effing DAVID ARCHULETA ON TV. ARGH. But yes, IT WAS AWESOMEEE~ HE WAS SO FLIPPEN' CUTEEEE! So cute I wanted to explode. HAHAHAHA. xD. DAMMIT! Why didn't I just go to that stupid tv show instead??? SERIOUSLY. He had an interview and he even performed! See now THAT's something worth waiting 7 hours for. At least he stayed there for quite a while, MORE THAN 5 MINUTES, at least. JESUS CHRIST! I really wish I just went to that show instead! :( and it was LIVE! :((

Fuck it. :(( I swear he was SO ADORABLE!!! SQUEEEEEE~ XD. BAHAHAHAHA. Dude holy shit, my fangirlism on him last summer is totally coming back to me holy shit. HAHAHAHAHA. I DON'T FLIPPEN' CARE! I WILL FANGIRL HIM WHILE HE'S HERE! XD. Dude seriously. I regret it. I could've just dropped by MOA yesterday to catch him and totally see him today in the show! THOSE PEOPLE IN THE STUDIO ARE SERIOUSLY LUCKY BASTARDS. I'D KILL TO BE THERE! :(( :((

Damn it. : Oh and lol, i saw his fanclub there! LOLOLOL. XD. Ohmygod they're really obsessed! HAHAHA! XD. I saw them with the same banners they had yesterday. lolol. And christ, ARCHULETA WAS SOOO CUTTEEEEEE WHEEEE~ XD. And he's seriously a genuinely nice person, more reason to love him! <3. KYAAAHHH.

YES I AM BEING SUCH A FANGIRL NOW. SUE ME. XD.

It's just really amazing you know? HE'S ACTUALLY HERE! XD. I mean, just last summer i was fangirling him all the way. Hell, even check my posts last summer! I've been rooting for him since his audition and that was January of last year! And now he's FINALLY here! It's unbelievable. The sucky thing tho, is that I'm really broke and it's an open ground concert this saturday so me and nichie will be in the back. :/ YES WE ARE THAT SQUATTER. HAHAHAHA. =))=)). Daanggg. I'd give my left arm to be in the titanium seats and have him near. :(( Silver's too fucken far away! it's like the second to the last. THERE BETTER BE THOSE BIG ASS TV's!

Damn it archuleta. why do you have to be so cute and adorable. whyd you have to be such a sweetheart. WHY GODDAMN IT WHY??? youre making it so fucken hard for me. HAHAHAHAHA. XD. augh. really fangirling here now. he's just seriously AWESOME. XD.

I LOVE YOU DAVID!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA. XD.

//EDIT//

Today's another Archuleta day, LOLOL. So first, i catch him on SIS then afterwards, celine notices my stat on facebook and tells me he's going to be in eat bulaga too!! so i totally flip out and she asks my phone number so we can both fangirl him together. i turn on my tv and goddamn what a fucker! NO FUCKING CABLE!! ugh totally flipped out. after a while i open it again THANK EFFING GOD, the cable's back! so yes celine calls but david's still not there so we got off the phone after a while. then when david comes out celine calls me again and we fangirl =))=)) we barely fangirled though since we were near our moms and thatd be awkward. haha! but omg yes david effing archuleta!! haha i heard her squeak a bit. damn if mom wasnt here id be shrieking and screaming and hyperventilating and shit. =))=)). lol whats so funny is that i saw that girl from yesterday. i think shes the president of the arhuleta fan club here in the philippines. she was like beside the show's hosts and she had the archuleta shirt with her! hahaha. daannnggg how i wish i just went today instead! :( its more worth it! he did 2 shows today and i totally wouldve catched both!

meh, nothing much today. just ARCHULETA ARCHULETA ARCHULETAAAA ive been spamming his twitter and he does reply to people but never me :( well NOT YET that is! haha i really wish he'd @reply me that'd be really flippen' awesome!

lmfaooo timmy made me a video on my facebook. he stole my video wall post virginity! D:< just like he stole my first phone call from a guy virginity! rawr! hahaha lolol kidding. what a fucker hahahaha. =)). id like to get off the net right now and watch all the dvds waiting for me but i have to be updated with archuleta's tweets and im still uploading the GAY video from yesterday.

crap now my mom wants me to take an afternoon walk! id really LOVE to but im uploading something on facebook so i cant! daang itttt gaahhh

will edit once i lose steam.

FUCK THIS.
FUCKITY FUCK FUCK FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

SERIOUSLY. I HATEHATEHAAAATTEEEE this effing feeling! IT SUCKS SO BAD i just want to cryyy!!! :( Fuck it. Fuck it. FUCK IT!!!! Motherfuuuuuuuuuu-

//I'll edit this later when I get to chill. AGGGHHHH.//

K. Let me start this off by: HABERDAY WIFEY! (and rob pattinson lolol)

So yes. Awhile ago I was SOOOOO UPSET. PISSED. MAD. DISAPPOINTED. BUMMED OUT. WTF. It just really sucked SO FLIPPIN BAD I could cry! :( The David Archuleta Greeting thing WAS SO GAY!!!

So recap:

Yesterday I was in the province. Nothing much, just watched Criss Angel in Mindfreak. My god that was such a mindfuck. =)). scanned through old photo albums but I was too lazy to take pictures of them. Damn that house is empty. It was SO BORING in there, I decided to twitter thru phone and then WTF, I see Dana saying that there's a FRIGGIN' SIGNING TOMORROW FOR DAVID COOK AND ARCHULETA! I totally flipped! I was seriously freaking out, I wanted to go home already and just go online and get the details. I was pretty much restless the whole time. Thank God there's Kevin. He was my texting buddy the whole day since it was SRSLY boring in there. Thanks Kev! :D I was also texting with Zhiela! She's FINALLY back! Damn i missed her! We have some plans now. :) I'll be sleeping over at her house this friday (i really hope we drink, i've been craving for some reason) and monday she'll be at my place! We'll be playing badminton and exploring the neighborhood. :) SO STOKED FOR THAT! \:D/. Celine also called me in my phone since I asked her about it. Too bad she couldn't come. We went around SM afterwards then went home. I gots new shoes! They're for my dancing lessons this saturday. :)

My Skechers Superflyyy~ They are legit, bb! :) I loveeee themmm. I've been wanting them for AGES, jeezz. Now i finally have it! FUCK YA!

So anyways. When I got back i totally went batshit crazy over the signing thing since i only knew about it the day before the actual signing, wtff. Dana and I agreed to meet each other tomorrow and go to the signing together. And she said that only David Archuleta would be there. HELL YA! So last night I was pretty stoked for all the events to come, I barely had sleep, haha.

Then today. TODAY WAS THE MOST GAYEST THING EVER, UGH. :/

So I totally woke up early since I really wanted to meet David Archuleta and I couldn't afford to lose my spot, So i had to get there early before everyone else does. Got there during the opening time of MOA which was 10 am and I was the fourth person in the line, if I didn't get lost, I could've been first! There were already alot of people lining up. And what the actual fuck man, THERE WAS NO SIGNING. : HOW FUCKING GAY IS THAT??? So since there was no signing, Dana didn't go so I was just there alone. There were still those VIP seats though. You had to buy these bags worth 140 to get in. What a rip off! I'd rather buy a CD that cost 500 and get to meet archuleta than pay 140 and just see him there, like everyone else who isn't even paying,ugh. should've thought of that earlier, seriously. dammit! :

so there i was, at 10 fucking am in the morning, fourth in line, and just waiting. AND THE FRIGGIN THING'S STILL AT 5 PM, JESUS CHRIST! I had no choice but to stay there, i couldnt give up my spot since there were people lining up already. jesus, his fanclub was there! they were those group of girls i saw in the news that welcomed archuleta in the airport! my godddd. they were first, obviously. it was kind of unfair tho, around 3 of them were there when we got signed up and they reserved the spots before us for their other members. suckage much, i was supposed to be infront damn it!

anyways, yes i was just there fucking waiting for 7 fucking hours just to see Archuleta. THAT WAS SO NERVEWRACKING. I was seriously doing NOTHING in there but wait! jesus christ! so thank god again there's kevin, my awesome boredom buddy. we always help each other out when we're bored, haha. he kept me company again since it was so boring waiting in line for 6 FLIPPIN HOURS NO FUCKING SHIT! I was just in there 7 hours straight! THAT'S INSANITY. : i didnt know i was THAT patient, holy shit! haha! =)). damn, the things i would do just to see my favorite musicians. that's not a first either! ive done crazier things for the love of meeting them! I was also texting with Timmy and Celine, aside from Kevin. I really had no one to bug, gah. And lol WHAT A SMALL WORLD! kevin knows two people who used to be in our batch, anya and monica. and how ironic since i was just talking to kevin about it last monday. theyre going to hang out soon and i might go with them im just not so sure since..ugh monday. : shes totally going to ask him. gahgahgah i totally screwed it all up monday. : okay being really vague right there.

So at around 1 or 2 pm, they FINALLY let us in and take our seats. I have been standing in line for 3-4 hours straight and doing nothing but wait just to get in that stupid VIP place. so when we went in i was in the flipping 4th row. well, its all because of that fanclub, they totally hogged all the front spots. i was in the isle, which is good. people got excited over seeing the red carpet on the isle. i got excited too! we thought david would actually pass by in there going to the stage. then there was about 3-4 false alarms. people started screaming out of nowhere and we'd actually think david's there already but he's not. lol it was such a fucker i swear! i feel like we were being played like fools or something. its annoying. i mean theyre treating us like stupid fangirls or whatever. but the fanclub sure was interesting to watch. there were alot of them and they had all these crazy big ass banners for david and they had these shirts and all. they were obviously OBSESSED with the guy. those were the same banners i saw on the news the other day. how funny. and i got to buy some food and buy the tickets while i had the time to go out the vip area.

so anyways, around 4-ish Boys Night Out comes onstage and starts talking to the crowd and people start freaking out and go like OMG ARCHULETA WHERE IS HE??? and we were all in the isle waiting for him to pass by the fucking red carpet already. turns out we had to wait for around 30 more minutes to see him. Christ. dammit those boys night out guys liked making fools out of us! they also asked us what we questions we'd ask david later. so yeah, they were pretty much just doing their job distracting us. and i saw kisses and candice!!! wtf! haha that was so random and funny. they were above me so we were just waving hi at each other. xD. so anyways, archuleta comes out and what do you know! HE DOESNT PASS BY THE FUCKING RED CARPET. FUCK MOA FOR KEEPING OUR HOPES UP SUNUVABITCH! you know i was there in the fucking isle for a reason. i wanted to bloody touch archuleta and say hi to him when he passes by. but nooo. he goes out BACKSTAGE. what a fucker. MOA, i meant. not archuleta. haha. xD.

so yes all girls started screaming and shrieking and freaking out and i was just there O_O because I COULDNT SEE SHIT. mothereff! see! reason why i HATE being so fucken small, ugh. : im serious! there i was in the fucking crowd being squished by all these friggin giants and archuleta's on the flippin stage and i couldnt see fucking shit because the people infront of me are so fucking tall and im so fucking short! what pisses me off more is that i have been there since 10 bloody am in the morning and those mothereffers at the front of me only came like, oh idk, 5 fucking minutes before the actual thing? MOTHEREFF! jesus christ! i swear, i was supposed to be in the fucking front since im fucking small and i cant see shit!!! and they had this rule of like no standing on chairs so obviously i couldnt do that. how fucking gay was that!!! :( it really sucked balls because everyone was fucking sweating like motherfucking pigs and they all had their bodies squished to me and theyre holding out their cameras so theyre obviously raising their underarms which makes it even more worse. i swear, it was so bloody HOT CROWDED AND SMELLY it sucked so bad i couldve fainted in there!

what sucks more is that i barely even saw his face! that really, massively SUCKED like hell for me swear to god. : i just wanted to see his face! but no all these people really had to make it hard for me. i did not fucking wait in line for 7 fucking hours straight just to get a glimpse of his face. FUCK NO. I went there to smother myself with his presence and make the fucking most out of it but noooo. goddamn it!!! what a piss off! i dont even FUCKING REMEMBER HOW HE LOOKED LIKE! :( thats whats really pissing me off right now because i was supposed to keep a goddamn mental image of him up close and personal in my fucking head but no! i could barely see him with all the commotion going on. fuckingshit!!! : i dont know what he looked like, i barely remember! :( and that was a fucking once in a lifetime thing to be just a few inches away from him. MOTHERFLIPPER!!!

now whenever i think of archuleta i dont have that goddamn mental image of him in the greeting, instead i see the fucking face i see in AI. NOT THAT FACE I SAW TODAY. or barely saw, that is. fuck it!!! fuck it so bad!!! and IT WAS SO FUCKING GAY because he was only there for LESS THAN 5 MINUTES. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THAT! I mean yes i know its a greeting. But come on man! We did not go through all that shit just to see him for less than 5 minutes, LITERALLY. I for one, DID NO FUCKING WAIT 7 FUCKING HOURS STRAIGHT JUST TO SEE A GLIMPSE OF HIM. : but he really was nice! i was in the middle front, but i could barely see him with all those cameras (dammit, people mustve seen me on tv, GMA specifically. oh crap! haha) and those people and shit but it was all good. hes such a sweetheart! and he said MAHAL KITA! xD. yeh. xD. and hes such a happy little guy, lol. =))=)). i have the whole thing recorded in my camera. my gad is he CLEAN like what martin said in his video with david before on martinsays. he's as cute as a button and butt clean! daaanggg! he was saying hi to all these people and ive been waving at him the whole time but he couldnt see me because i was so short and all these people were blocking me from him. :( i just wanted him to wave back at me :((

so he just drops by and says hi and leaves. then once he leaves i fucking run to catch his car, and ALL these people start running too like wtf! i even left that stupid green bag in my chair, i didnt care anymore! i just HAD to see him leave for one last time! and it was craaazzyy. i was pretty tired to run. i caught the van but im not sure if he was in there. i saw the bodygaurd though, waving us off but i didnt see david, sadly.

SO THAT ENDS THAT SUCKY GAY ASS GREETING. :

ugh. i so regret that! i couldve just dropped by MOA and not have that VIP shit anymore and not waste 7 fucking hours over nothing. i was really upset right after so i decided to shop as therapy. xD. i only shopped for accessories since i was broke. gots myself some pretty red shades and a bag and 2 headbands. yay! i was supposed to shop for denise' gift but i was running low on cash already and i didnt know what to buy her. ohwells. more window shopping, and then i chilled in starbucks. you know it was such a piss off. i didnt want to stay any longer in MOA because they were fucking playing archuleta's songs on fucking repeat and trust me, that's the last thing i wanted. : that was such a piss off swear to god!! like wherever i went, it was just there. his voice was just fucking there. uggghh. :

so i hang out in the ice skating part and goodd sucked so bad. i just really felt horrible when i was in there alone because this day was so gay. : and i was alone to dwell on it. : and elvis' are you lonesome tonight was playing while i was watching people skate. sigh. :( it reminded me of my barkada. and what made me even sadder was that i was going to the david cook/archuleta concert this saturday alone. i didnt even feel like going anymore! i regret buying those tickets. whats the fucking point in going to a concert when youre alone? ive done it too many times and it has always sucked going to shows/signings alone.

so i went home, logged in twitter and of course, saw david's tweets. ive been spamming it, haha. i really hope i do get a reply from him. that would insanely make my day, and it would so make up for that stupid greeting shit. ugh. T_T

MOA, YOU FAILED ME, ONCE AGAIN. BOO YOU. >:(

i was really upset awhile ago but im fine now. i am so fucken happy nichie's going with me to the concert this saturday! it was really random. i am so fucken happy she was online awhile ago. i BADLY needed someone to talk to. i havent talked to people for like 2 wks already! thats insanity! im just really glad i talked to her tonight. :) and lol i didnt really expect her to go with me this saturday! haha! yes! finally, i can actually look forward to the concert. xD. i have SOMEONE to go with, and not just me with my lonely self. and the sleepover at zhiela's house has been moved next wed. it can wait. :)

my only problem right now is how to get nichie's ticket. it costs 625 and i only have 300 left. ;_______; and since the thing with zhiela isnt happening this friday, i wont have extra money. oh noes. D: i have a feeling i'll be buying it last minute. like seriously hours before the concert. i really hope they still have tickets left. gah.

oh and its cooks turn to be welcomed by the fans tomorrow? im not so sure, just heard. whatever. I AM NOT GOING JESUS. i am so not getting myself into that shit again. ugghh.

today i feel lonely.

Childhood Friends. Neighbors.
I really miss them right now.

Gone are those days when I'd wake up early in the morning then head straight to Gaea and Arrion's house and we'd play all day with Tyrone, Tini and Nikol. Those days full of pure bliss and innocence. I will always remember my childhood friends/neighbors. They were the kids i grew up with and it's pretty sad that i'm the eldest and i have distanced myself away from them. I really miss those days right now. I just wish I can go back to being that 9 year old kid again, playing all day with them, getting into adventures and doing the most fun stuff.
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Today I feel lonely.
I don't exactly know why, but I woke up feeling lonely.
Thinking to myself, oh it's just another summer day I have to waste by myself. Sigh.
It's Monday and Zhiela's back. I just checked my messages and she was in Taiwan around 6 hours ago. So she's probably already in the Philippines right now. But I can't see her sadly.
It's her mom's birthday and they'll be in Tagaytay for 4 days. Suckage. She'll text me but I don't have load and my fone's dead. Goddamit. I really just need to see my friends ASAP.

And Denise is in HK right now. Her birthday's coming up. I shall greet her even if she's away. Damn, i still can't find a gift for her. She'll be away for 4 days too. And Nichie, i never get to see her because of her relatives thing, plus her diving lessons. Why the hell is everyone away?

This sucks too much. I just want the stupid EK shit and Sleepover thing already. Jesus Christ.
Fuck our schedules. I really wish we can reschedule it as soon as possible. And it would be really great if Fontana happens.

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Just got back from SM/Podium.
Guess who I saw? Ayiheee. :> :">
HAHA! Seriously I didn't expect him to be there. He was so hot, omg. Plus he's single na. YAY.
BAHAHAHA. That's like the second time i've seen him outside trumpets.
So yes, my brother got a haircut in Bench and it was just beside Trumpets (they relocated a floor lower) so I got my yearbook, FINALLY.
And wheee. I saw him. \:D/ Idk, it made me kilig eh. Hahaha.
We had eye connection! LOLOL. Daang, I should've gone Trumpets this year. SAYANG! Haha! =))=)).

So yes. today was kinda productive.
I'll be getting my hair fixed next tuesday. I'm kind of thinking twice since I don't want to damage my hair anymore. It's really fucked up as it is. :/
But, i really do want a new hairstyle sooo...whatever goes.

See you when I see youuu. :)

happy mother's day

Hello, Hello.

I'm kinda tired right now. I've been actually quite productive for the past few days, which is good. My sleeping habit's fixed. :D I didn't know I could do so much without going online. Srsly. I really tried to make good use of my time without using the interweb.

Let's start yesterday.

I watched PS I Love You and I cried! Haha! It really is a sad movie you know. Plot is really genius. Gerry Kennedy is seriously the most awesome dead husband there is. =)). I printed some pictures of Beckett too. Why? For some reason I had this sudden urge to draw real life people. So who else the best model to draw? Of course William Beckett! Haha. Well it led to MAJOR FAILURE. I'm not kidding:

See. FAILURE. I really suck in drawing. I really should stick to anime, as much as I want to draw real life people. Gah. So anyways, that went pretty bad. Haha. But at least I printed some Beckett Pictures. :)

I couldn't sleep so I went through my stuff. And I didn't expect myself to go Nostalgia Tripping. And this time, it's not even about 1st year, 2nd year or 7th grade! It's seriously MY CHILDHOOD here we're talking about. It was really great! I can't believe I still had those things after a billion kazillion light years. My childhood wasn't that bad after all. It was pretty cool actually. Sigh.

I read some letters my tito sent to me before and it really made me tear up. He's a really great tito and I hope I could re-connect with him again. I really feel bad now, because I've been such a bitch to him. Well, not really bitchy, but well i'm less childish now, and more teenager-ish ya know? I bet he misses the old little me. And I feel bad for ignoring him now most of the time, and always going to him just for money purposes. fuck, i really feel bad! Same goes with my mom. Sure she may have her daily bitch fits, but no matter how crappy our relationship is, she's still my mom. (quoted from neko lol)

anyways. i read through my old diaries from 4th to 6th grade. LAUGHTRIP. =))). Fuck man, i was such a STALKER!!! Seriously. I had this BIG MAJOR CRUSH on this guy before (I am still NOT saying the name haha) and ohmygod, i stalked him like hell! It's embarrasing. Oh, if you read my diary entries from before, YOU WOULD LAUGH YOUR ASS OFF! I was such a naive little kid. It really is different when you've undergone puberty and you're a teenager already. Sigh.

that was seriously funny. I had his fucking PLATE NUMBER, the name of his parents and brothers, his whole name, his address, email, EVERY SINGLE THING! HAHAHAHA! And ohmygod, i remember those times I would ask Lindsay to get stolen pictures of him. AHAHAHA holy shit dude. I even took down notes of those times we'd be near each other BAHAHAHA. I was so obsessed with him before. =))=)). then those times I had with Jessica and our obsession over kuya joaqui! Haha he was like a SENIOR and we were only 6th graders that time. We STLAKED him too. AHAHAHAHA. I remember Aljohn and her, plus me, michi, lindsay and kat. Holy shit man. And i rmemeber all those Lindsay x Tristan moments. Haha! :>

and gaaaddd, it's really funny looking back at it now. All those days that revolved around my friends, that guy I was super obssessed with and my grades. YES, i actually gave a crap about my grades before. An godammit, I miss my childhood friends! I really do! They're all my neighbors. I live closest to Gaea and Arrion. Our doors are practically parallel to each other, no kidding! Then there's tini, tyrone, nikol. Shit. I used to be friends with Stephanie and Nikki too but I figured they were too old for me that time. I miss all those times we played Marco Polo, played with our bratz dolls, draw anime, play with the chicks, dogs and bunnies they had, play bato bato pik, had those house made out of blankets thing, dance to britney, sing along to Avril Lavigne, played soccer and badminton in the penthouse, bking cookies, haing pakama parties and oh good lord! I miss them so much! I really had fun with them. :) Dude gradeschool was the shit! xD.

Compare me now to the old me before, we are SOOOO DIFFERENT, i swear. All the memories just came flooding in and like whooaa~ it was nice. :)

So about today.

Hey Mom, Happy Mother's Day. :)
This is the only picture I have of you, sadly.
I was pretty surprised when I found this in the back of my old diary last night.
How ironic that I found it the night before mother's day.

And in the diary, I had an entry about you:

May 7, 2006, Sunday, 11:19 PM:

Dear Diary, I am writing in black for the sadness I feel right now.
Mood: Sad, Depressed, Lonely
Why? My REAL mother is...DEAD. You heard that right, just found out today. She died July 05' because of depression...does anyone really die of depression??? Unbelievable, it just happened last year...last july...I may not have seen her but I still love her because she's my mom. Mother's Day is this May 14, I have to offer it all up to her. I still care for her... I don't wanna cry...I know she's up there. I'll pray for her...I should be tough.

I made a song for her but it's too embarrasing so I won't post it haha.

So to the mom that I never knew,
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. :)

Moving on, I woke up 12 and we celebrated mass. Afterwards we went to Slimmer's World. YES, SLIMMER'S WORLD. like srsly, wtf. We went to an effing gym. O_O. so my mom's really paranoid about her health now that she's growing old and stuff so she decided to go to the gym starting today. she tagged along my brother too. so both of them will be working out in the gym this year. fuck! i REALLY want to work out in the gym with them too. It's a cool place. I really want to work out gaahhh~

and omfg i practically drooled when i saw the dance studio. EFFING BLOODY HELL! they were offering dance lessons! like yoga, kickboxing aerobics hip hop etc. i asked my mom if i could, at least I could somehow be with them while working out, she agreed to it but my brother said it was a rip off. i have to be working out in the gym too, before I could take those dance lessons. daang it! :( he says its better i enroll in a real dance school. so my mom decided to let me have dance lessons at maneuvers (?) this saturday. and im already enrolled. wtf! well originally my brother was supposed to have his dance lessons there but he was the only guy haha so he backed out so now im taking his spot. :o

im kinda stoked for it, kinda nervous idk. it's in greenhills, annapolis i think? my brother says they're all girls in there about my age. ah fuck, i bet one person's from reedley there or somthn. i bet the people there are those stinkin filthy rich bastards. sheeeittt. i think theyre those girls who go to those parties, seeing as all the parties happen in greenhills. theyre those rich bastards that live in valleverde or something. holy fuck dude. im kinda nervous i wont have friends in there but whatever, i came there to dance, dammit. we'll have it one hour every saturday for 9 sessions i think. yay! \:D/ FINALLY, DANCE LESSONS. FUCK YA!!!

so when we got back home, i decided to go through my stuff again. it was really tiring fixing all of my stuff but i feel accomplished for fixing them all haha. :) that should count as a workout for today lol. i saw all my stuffed toys again! :D i love them so much. most of them are gifts from friends. tomorrow i'll be washing them all since they're dirty and stuff. laundry time! haha :p
i also came across my bratz dolls. i was obsessed with them before. here are all my dolls:

lol what a waste. i should give them all to my little sisters soon.

mmm.
well tomorrow zhiela's finally back! woots! \:D/
but i wont see her sadly. :( i want to fetch her nga in the airport eh. HAHAHAHA! =))=)).
i hope she doesnt have the swine flu lolol. haha shes such a fucker, she said she got me a blue tube top dress. hahaha fuck that! =)). i told her to get me a band shirt. betch! haha. well i just hope i at least see her THIS week. i just really need to see her ASAP before i lose my mind, gah.

and suxxx. the ek/sleepover thing? its not happening. :/
fuck it but i hope we really could reschedule it ASAP. as in ASAP talaga. I really REALLY want to see my friends already. and i want to experience summer for godssakes. i would really be happy if that fontana thing happens. fuck yeah!
its pretty fucked. its malabo. it cant be this friday-saturday because of nichie's diving lessons, and my dance lessons + david cook and archuleta concert. AND WTF my mom wants to go with me to the concert. well. that's weird. awkward. but whatev. :|

ugh whatever goes. i just really cant wait to see them. whenever that is. just hope to see them ASAP, specially zhiela that bitch. we have alot of catching up to do.

so. see you when i see you. :)

good girls go baddd

hello thereee.

yesterday. mmm. well nothing much actually. i don't remember doing much. all i know is i used the computer the wholeee dayy that i got a migraine from it. but i didn't go online. i was in the bedroom, disconnected from the interweb and just doing whatever with the computer.

i tried watching the beatles' documentary thing my mom had but it was kinda boring so i switched to criss angel's mindfreak. hahaha its such a mindfuck. i didnt really feel like watching it so I decided to go do some mixtapes for some people. FAILURE. i cant do it from my iPod. it needs to be from my library. daaanggg. and then i watched some of my podcasts, and I really enjoyed watching the Beautiful Places in HD thing. Felt like i was travelling, virtually. lol. so after, i decided to rewatch Step Up 2 :)

yes the dancing fever's still in me :) really enjoyed it. love that movie. and their dancing holy shit~ hahaha i like robert hoffman nao. <3. srsly. i can't believe i didnt notice him first time I watched the movie. he is such a cutie!

my mom had a night walk and she was asking me to come, and I reallyreally wanted to go on a night stroll but i was in the middle of the movie. T_T daanggg. ohwells. and so since i was home alone, and i finished the movie pretty earlyy, i decided to watch alyson stoner's youtube. seriously SHE IS SO GOOD IN DANCING! she hella better be in step up 3!!! i swear, she is sooo gooodd. i remember seeing her before on disney and nickelodeon dancing. and i was just like, daaangg girl, you can bust moves!!! so lol i watched this dance instructional thing she had and i decided to learn it. mwahaha im such a noob. xD. but srsly alyson stoners so cool i dont get it why shes not as popular as miley or something.

so that ends about yesterday.

and today I woke up from a really strange dream. It was the first day of school, and one of my former friends kept on shouting slut at me. she was saying to everyone that I was a slut. WTF??? and i remember being sandwiched by two fatass guys. omg what is wrong with me?? haha lol. well it triggered a feeling. that feeling of coming back to school. with the whole first day of school and whatnot.

ohwells. i really will be back there in a while. I CANT WAIT to see the class list. srsly. i NEED to know who my classmates are already.

and today i dl-ed cobra's new song with leighton meester: Good Girls Go Bad! FUCK YA! im so stoked for hot mess. august 11, bb. :) cobra's songs are cool shizzz!

well i still have the whole day ahead of me. saturdayyy. hmm how to waste it?