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> NO SCHOOL ON MONDAY, YAYZZZ. Moved to June 15, fuck yeah!

>RANT 1: I am so MOTHERFUCKING sick of always being that girl that they find pretty/cute but NOTHING MORE THAN THAT. I feel like BULLSHIT okay? Because looks will never get you anywhere. I feel like fucking bullcrap, you know? YES YOU KNOW. Vitwater you know? It's just that, I always feel like people only like me for the physical qualities, but never really who I am. If I was buttface ugly, would you even get the fucking chance to know me? I feel like they don't see through the physical features and yeah. It can get really tiring and annoying from time to time because it makes you feel like shit, you know? BITWATER YOU KNOW!!! That you can never be anything more than that fucking face. It makes you feel supremely shitty. When you're trying to prove so much yet no one really sees through it. And SO FUCKING WHAT if i'm one of the goddamn guys. That's just who I am. Take it or leave it.


>Rant 2: And when I do attract guys, IT'S ALWAYS THE WRONG GUYS. I'm only asking for ONE guy, jesus christ. Is that so hard! Why can I never get a guy that will like me back? I am just so goddamn sick and tired of waiting, argh.

>Rant 3: YOU. Why the fuck do you keep on popping in and out of my life, argh. Small world, small world. Just when...ugh. I'm just...sick of it, okay? At least for once, DON'T MESS IT UP GOOD GOD.

Lol my life. Yes just a mini rant/breakdown there.

Anyways I kinda noticed something with myself lately.

I haven't been really eating much. Seriously, ask the campers. I NEVER eat when I'm with them. And when I do, i barely eat. You can't even consider what I'm eating is a meal. And when I do eat, I HAVE to force myself. Like I really HAVE to force myself. I feel so shitty when I eat something. Like i cant eat it properly and yeah. I even feel like puking it out, and i feel disgusted with myself when I force myself to eat something.

Ack i dont know whats wrong with me! I just kinda lost my appetite i guess. Idk why tho. Its so weird. I lost some weight from it but I really didnt plan on losing some in the first place.
The campers/staffers ALWAYS have to force me to eat or they would treat me out just to eat.

I dont know wtf is wrong with me!!!

And i really want to try being a vegetarian..yeah. really serious.

Have so much to say alot has been happening but whatevs. School will start next week and life goes on. Haayyzzz. Aryt. See you when I see you.

I'M 3A.

OMG OMG OMG. I'm in 3A!
Thanks to Ellaine for posting. :)

So i'm going to be in 3A and my adviser is Sir Cruzado's wife i think. She's really nice so i don't see any problem with that. And my classmates aren't that bad either. The class looks sort of interesting i guess. They're alright. :)

And chiuie's in there! Whoo! Haha! My loner buddy! So at least if ever the class gets stereotypical and all we can chill again for one whole school year. LONER'S SOCIETY LIVES FOR ANOTHER YEAR! Woots! Haha! And Joey's there too! She's with us. :) I'm glad Chiuie and Joey are my classmates. They've been with me when I was a loner in class last year. I am so glad to have them for another year. Yay!

And Mmm. Justin's my classmate again! Woots! Haha! Reunited again after 2 years. I hope we can be confidante buddies again, yay. AND OMG ANDY!!! I was seriously happy when I saw her name on the list. YAY! I'm classmates with Andyyy! I can sense lots of fun with her. Wheeee!

And the class has some interesting people I still would like to meet and know. So yay me! At least my class is not as bad as before. Woots.

And as for my barkada. Well like what Nichie wanted, she's out of the Pilot class already. She's in 3J while Zhiela's in 3G and Loise is in 3E. Mia's...gone. Dayum. But whatever, we've been through this last year, what's another year? I know our friendship's stronger than that. :)

So I'm all positive for the year ahead. Yes it's the toughest year of high school but I know, i'll survive. I HAVE to reach my goal. Haha, Camp really had a huge effect on me. =)).

dayum.

MY SCHOOL IS FULL OF BULLSHIT UGH.

3 REASONS:

1) CSA SOCKS. WTF. : It's the most gayest thing I have ever seen. It's disgusting! Ugh! I can't believe I have to wear that shit around! As if CSA shoes weren't gay enough!

2) Our school's this MONDAY already, wtf! While everyone else still has a week of freedom, we're already in school! ARGH. Such a piss off!!!

3) I still don't know my section. THEY SAID THEY'LL POST IT TODAY. And wtf, celine even went to school only to find out it's still to be posted tomorrow! God, I don't even want to know.

4) And more to that, some people are making arrangements. I find it so damn unfair okay. We should all be distributed randomly and it shouldn't be planned, grr.

5) I just learned that if you fail a subject, you can pay CSA to pass you. WTF MAN. : That's just...wrong, okay.

So point is my school sucks. I still want another week of summer even if there's a friggin' thunderstorm, I don't friggin' care, OKAY. Goddamn, I don't want this summer to end! It's the best summer ever, seriously.

I'm too tamad na to narrate what's been happening. Actually ALOT has been happening. Dayum, this summer felt like the longest one ever, and it's been so damn eventful. I have so much to tell, so much to share, but I guess I'll just keep it to myself. Whopeee.

So today...

Went to go supplies shopping. Wasn't in the mood for it, just randomly picked up stuff. Bumped into Roshan! I completely forgot that he's already in college! Argh! It was only like yesterday when I met him when he was still a junior! And Sang Wa! They're both in La Salle now. Lucky bastards get to have another week of summer, rawr. Wow, i really am a junior now, and all my big brothers are in college already. Dayum. :/

TEEN EXPLORE ADVENTURE CAMP 6 IS THE BEST FUCKING THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

Seriously. You're missing half of your life if you haven't joined this camp i tell you!

I AM TOO FUCKING OVERWHLEMED TO EVEN FUCKING BLOG ABOUT IT.

All i know is that I FUCKING LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE ONE OF YOU GUYS, YOU ALL MEAN SO MUCH TO ME, SO FUCKING MUCH, AND SHIT, I JUST FUCKING CAME BACK HOME LIKE MINUTES AGO AND IM LIKE SUPER DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW NO FUCKING SHIT, I COULD EVEN CRY. NO ACTUALLY I WANT TO CRY SO FUCKING BAD RIGHT NOW.

AGHAGHAGHHHH. I cannot wait to see you guys tomorrow. Well at least some of you.

I will NEVER, EVER forget TEA CAMP 6. EVER. :(

I can't wait til' we're all completely united again.

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fuck im too incoherent right now. I can't express how im feeling.

Im PISSED, SAD, DEPRESSED,STRESSED, CONFUSED, EXHAUSTED, DRAINED AND FUCK IT IM SUPER FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW. :((

I wish camp never had to end. :(

I am going to blog more about camp soon, once i'm in the right mind. I'm still overwhelmed and stressed and everything else right now. Can't really think straight. Too fucked up for words.

I hope you all guys know that i love each and everyone of you guys so fucking much, and i miss you guys already, so damn much. SHIT SHIT SHIT i can cry now AGHHHHH~

....I'll see you all of you guys again....soon. :)