debut

Good Morning. :)
Hah. Well technically it's already morning right? It's like 1 AM right now.
Just got back from a tiring night at PatMai's Debut.
So here goes the narration: (I find narration so WTF-ing, guhhh.)

Woke up 2 pm, met Zhiela at Park Square 3pm, ate at KFC. Talked and hah, it was fun talking to her again. I miss her and it's been only like how many days? Haha. Then yes, we go rush to Market Market and ran inside to get PatMai a super last minute gift. It was so funny because the minute we stepped in, we already saw what we wanted to give to her and it was this stuffed toy. We just literally grabbed it and payed for it, half each. =)))).

Then off to her house. We got so distracted by our Grade 7 pictures. It was so fun because goddd, time is so fast you know? We were totally nostalgia tripping there. Good times, haha. AND OHMYGOD, NICHIE! She looked SO FUCKEN ADORABLE I wanted to squish her cheeks in the photos! HAHA! xD. It was so much fun reminiscing the past with zhiela. =)))). Like we were both like WTF? and we just kept on laughing the whole time. I enjoyed it. =))))). We watched our 7th grade videos too and we sang and danced along to our graduation song. ~It all begins with a dream ! ~ Haha, it was seriously fun. We got so distracted we didn't even notice we were late! Like we were rushing because it was almost 7, hahaha! We just like put on whatever, we barely got to fix oursleves. HEH, Natural look/beauty. :> =)))). Zhiela and I both don't work well with make up and dolling up. =))).

And it was so funny because we both ended up wearing our batch party dresses! Super funny because we were just nostalgia tripping on our 7th grade shit. Whoo! Batch Party lives on after 2 years! Frickin' Deja Vu man! Haha! =)))).

And lol, we were late and we got lost going there. We didn't know the place eh. =)))). Soon got there and found denise, nichie and mia. Very WTF-ing, felt like prom, lol. Some of our batchmates were there too like Ellaine and Lourdz and another one. It was boring for the most part, but PatMai looked do adorable! Haha so cute. LOL, the pool looked RLY inviting though. I wanted to go night swimming. :( So anyways, since we were so bored, we decided to ditch it nalang and go to Mcdo because we were all hungry. =))). Some seniors were such fuckers to us, like when we were leaving they were like "Ang sama" BITCH! I swear, that was such a piss off because goddamn it, MIND YOUR OWN SHIT! Like it's so annoying because we're not doing anything to them! Fucking sadists, ugh.

We left around 10 something i think, walked across the street to eat some mcdo while in our cocktail dresses. =)))). Soon went back, tried to look for a CR but the only CR was the one in the party place. OHSHIT. =))). We made takas pa naman. Hala. Hahaha. So ya, we went upstairs and it was so freaky and scary, kind of like that movie Prom Night so we freaked out and went downstairs again. Nichie's car was soon there and so was Zhiela's so Mia was left alone. But since our MOTHER nichie didn't want to leave her daughter alone, she stayed with her. AWWWW! =)))). Her mom let her stay with Mia while waiting for her mom. Heh, we planned on riding the pick up truck again and get high at the back while driving around the fort but Nichie's mom was there. SAYANG! HAHA! =))). So ayun, soon parted ways.

Zhiela and I went to the Gloria Jean's place and I changed back into my clothes. HEH, it was like cinderella dude. It was almost 12 that time. =))). I was supposed to meet my mom at High Street at Fully Booked but it was so scary! SRSLY! If zhiela dropped me off and left me alone there i woulda been raped! O_o. So we went around high street twice to wait for my car, but it was taking too long so zhiela just dropped me off at Starbucks. Safe place. Whew. xD. And ya.

The debut's like the batch party though, 2 years after. Only better. =))). What happened 2 years ago pretty much happened again tonight. DEJA FRICKIN VU! I looked like a total mess, i didn't get to fix myself that much, felt shitty, looked shitty. Just like 2 years ago. DUDE PROM! Haha. I will so not FAIL that. I will look my goddamn best that night.

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DAYM. I'm supposed to go Badminton with Zhiela at my place tomorrow, but then she just realized when we were going home that she had plans. Suck. :( Well one of these days we will i tell you! So she's going with us this Friday to the Ozine Cosplay Convention thingy at Megamall, along with Denise, Nichie, PatMai and some other people.

GAH. I'm free for 2 days. Idk what to do. O__O.

And eh, i liked talking to zhiela today. It's like those conversations we had before when we loathed school so much. Heh, good times. xD. It's fun catching up and all. We were like talking about what our debut would be like. We both want it to be at Bora, haha. We're gonna party! Because seriously, we both hate the formal traditional shit. IT'S SO BORING. If i had a debut, i don't want it to suck. I want it to be with my closest and bestest friends in the world and we'd have so much fun. I find the formal/traditional debuts so WTF-ing. It's like you can't even enjoy it, ugh. Like what's the point in celebrating when you can't even have fun?

We were also discussing about PROM. OMG PROM. OMG IT'S THIS YEAR. OMG WE'RE GOING TO BE JUNIORS! Ohgoooddd. Time's so fast! I feel like i'm slowly losing my childhood and i'm suddenly growing up. O_o My gad, next thing you know, it's MY DEBUT. GAD. Thinking about the future could be both scary and exciting at the same time.

Heh, it was really fun at her house. That was probably the fun part of the day. We were just like dancing in her bedroom to Michelle Branch/Santana/Summer songs and totally feeling the summer vibes.

And hah, i seriously had fun nostalgia tripping with her. The feeling was like ~whoa~. And to think i was just nostalgia tripping the night before! I slept like 5AM browsing through my 1st year and 7th grade shit. MYGAD. I feel so old! Haha.

One thing i learned today is to treasure my childhood and ENJOY my teenage years. Best years ever. Time's too fast you know? Got to live it up. :)

........AND OH MY GOD IT'S APRIL! D:

Debut dress.

Good Afternoon. :)

So yes. Today I ended up not going to Beljaf's birthday because I slept 5 AM already due to watching Breakfast at Tiffany's. It was such a classic. :) And so i spent the whole day trying to come up with what to wear for Patmai's debut tomorrow.

And since I just finished watching Breakfast at Tiffany's, I got quite inspired to pull off an Audrey Hepburn look tomorrow night. But, heh, that's not happening. xD. I ended up with EXACTLY THE SAME outfit i wore to the Batch Party effing 2 years ago! No wonder, i don't really have fancy looking clothes here. That blasted Batch Party cocktail dress is probably the only fancy looking thing I have that I can wear to formal events. And heh, that dress only cost less than a thousand! Ohmygod i'm so poor, hahahaha. xD.

One of these days I swear to God I will buy an elegant little black dress ala Audrey Hepburn. :) I will be Holly Golightly one of these days i tell you! I totally ADORE her. I just want to he like her. Poised, Elegant, Pretty and all that. She's PERFECT. Anyways, I dug up some of my 7th grade pictures. So that's what I wore for the Batch Party 2 years ago:

My Little Red Dress that I last minute bought at Landmark for only 600 because goddamn, it was last minute shopping and to think that I had 5 flipping thousand cash with me to spend on! ARGH.

Heh, I am telling you, i will look EXACTLY like that tomorrow. After 2 years, nothing has changed. Hah, i'm so disappointed in myself. FAIL! Hahahaha. =))). Eh, I'll make it up Prom this year. OH MY GOD PROM! Haha.

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Final Plans for Tomorrow: Meet up with Zhiela at Jollibee, Cinema Square, she picks up something from a store there and then we both do some last minute shopping for PatMai's gift at Market Market. Get ready at Zhiela's house after, doll up and yeah. Be at One Mckinley 7pm SHARP. Leave before the clock strikes 10. I KNOW, SO EARLY. SO KJ. Idk. Whatever, it's so fucked. Bahala na. =)))).

Sucks. Denise has the Audrey Hepburn dress I want to wear, but I doubt it fits me. :(
I WILL LOSE WEIGHT, JUST YOU SEE MOTHEREFFERS! HAHA! =)).

And FRIDAY! Yes. I shall go to that Ozine Cosplay Convention thingy with Denise. xD. Whooo. First time, but heh, crashing it for the fun of it. Besides, i miss megamall. Reminds me so much of those summer days. =))).

And as for the other plans this week, i don't think they're pushing through but whatever. :p

sunday.

Why Hello There. :]

So yes. Lazy Sunday. I'm wishing I could go to Trinoma right now and catch John Vesely for one last time, and FINALLY HEAR HIM PLAY VULNERABLE LIVE, but it just won't happen.

;__________;

Okay, moving on.
I am currently fixing my Itunes and it's been amusing, haha. I've deleted a couple of songs that I don't really listen to, that or the audio quality's really crappy or the song has been repeated. I'll continue doing this some other time, organize the Album Artwork and such.

Well plans for this week are still fucked but it doesn't really matter much. I'm worrying about the week after this. It's April and summer has officially started for me. 2 months. What can I do for two months? I'm SERIOUSLY begging for a Summer Job. Or if not, a really nice workshop I can join this summer. So far, none. :| I'm fucked.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR TWO MONTHS!

God, please. Let it not happen again. Let it not be one of those summers where i'd totally be isolated and totally disconnected from everyone. Those summers i haven't seen sunlight AT ALL and i've lived in complete darkness for 2 months. You have no idea how depressing that was. Suck it, I better make something out of these 2 months. I don't want to be alone and stuck at this place 24/7 for the next two months!

Saturday: Craig David/Secondhand Serenade

Mmm. Saturday: Craig David & Secondhand Serenade.

Sooo. Well it was fucked up at first because our plans weren't really final and yeah. So labo, haha. I woke up 12. Texted them. Denise couldn't make it. And yeah, we all met up at Zara. Andy told me that the tickets to the seats (which were apparently FOR FREE) were already sold out since it was given out 11 AM. Daang. And they were selling CDs but there was no signing raw. Daang. :( Then Yesss. There. Roamed around Glorietta/Greenbelt. Jewella.

Mmm. Then random shit. We had a photoshoot in the Park thinggyy, wtf. =)))). Then yes. Rustans. The White Hat. I ate yogurt. Mmm. Tasty. Now i'm craving, haha.

Craig David Signing. Tim bought 2 CDs (one for his 4th year friend), so I got the other one signed for him. We snuck in Andy without even meaning to. It was too easy, haha. =)))). Then whooo. Craig David. My god he is SO HUGE in person, swear to God. =)))). And then Tim was like forcing me to say his name when Craig would sign it. His name was too boyish so we changed it to his friend's name instead. So plan was, I say "Pat" when I get my CD signed. And then OHMYGOD, I FAILED. I SCREWED UP! Dx. I AM SO SORRY TIMMY.

Well this was what happened: Timmy was first, Afterwards Bianca, then Me. When it was my turn, he said Hi and smiled and I did the same. And then he asked me how I was then I was like, fine and I asked the same thing to him and he said the same reply, lol. Then he asked me what my name was and OF COURSE, I SAID MY NAME DUH, BECAUSE HE WAS ASKING FOR IT. Heck, he even asked for the spelling. And then OHMYFLIPPIN`G I TOTALLY FORGOT I WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY PAT! HOLY SHIT!

After that, i started freaking out. Like from the stage i was like, OH MY GOD TIMMY!!! And then yesss. I failed timmy ohmygod. :( I swear, he got pissed. HAHAHAHA SORRY BITCH! =))). He was so badtrip, i swear to God. Like after that whole thing, he was stressing about his friend's CD and he got upset that his name should be in the CD, not mine. SORRY NA, BITCH! HAHAHAHAHA =))).

But seriously, you have no idea. I felt so fucking bad. Hahahaha. =))))). Bianca even screwed up! She was supposed to say her mom's name (because her mom told her to buy the CD and get it signed for her) But well of course, you would be starstrucked! Craig was like to her: "What's your name DARLIN?" And well she ended up saying her name. She freaked over him calling her darlin HAHAHAHAHA =)))).

Shoot, i even caused a commotion! Ugh, totally humiliated myself. Since i was still onstage and I was freaking out to Timmy and I was screaming from the stage :"OH MY GOD TIMMYY!!!" Everyone and i mean EVERYONE was looking at me like I was some crazed Craig David fangirl, Like i was hyperventilating over him. FUCK THAT. I swear, when I got off stage people were just like staring at me and there was even this couple who was like beside me and making fun of me by imitating my sudden fangirlness (I SWEAR IT WASN'T, I WAS FREAKING OUT FOR GOD'S SAKES)

And then WTF, we planned to forge it since Timmy was pretty desperate already. =)))). We went to National and planned to buy pentle pens to forge the CDs. But wtf, we could just actually write there, we didn't have to buy. So we did that. HAHAHAHA. Yes, we hid from the staff and forged the CDs. I think we screwed it up more. =))))).

Then after that, randominity. Secondhand Serenade. It was kind of full already. And yes, those JJ's were there. (JJ = Squatter Emo Poseur) And gaahh. It was so wrong, okay. Mmm. Starbucks. I ate that yummy hungarian sausage sandwich. Mmm. Ate at Fuzion at the Bed thingy so we can watch the show from up there. But i guess we just ended up waiting since the show started an hour after.

We dropped Andy off, then Bianca. Me and Tim hung for a while, then he soon left. I missed the first part of the show since we were still hanging around Greenbelt. I stayed for the whole show and I was at the back. It was actually pretty funny being at the Backstage place. Because you can see all those fangirls go MAD CRAZY and i swear it was so fucking funny. =))). Like seriously, it made me realize that's how i'm like when i fangirl. Ohshit. It's so humiliating, hahahaha. O____O. I was so amused and entertained the whole time. Sucked balls though that I didn't get seats. :( It would've been seriously nice.

And WTF, there was meet and greet AND CD signing. WTFFF. Swear, got so bummed. You should've seen John. He was LITERALLY hugging EACH AND EVERY ONE who came on stage and he was so funny and spontaneous! Like, fuck man. Even the CD Signing people! UGGGHHHH. I hate it. I felt bad that I didn't get to meet John. Like fuuuuuuuuu- :( I felt so bad, I didn't even want to stay all the way til' he leaves. I was like to myself: "JUST. WALK. AWAY." So in the middle of the CD signing since I felt bad on missing out on him i just walked away and went home. It was hard, haha. Because usually i stay for the whole time, even chase them on the way out. That's how obsessive i could get. Ugh, the whole missing out thing just upset me.
Like fuck, I would trade getting shit signed and meeting Craig David for fucking Secondhand Sserenade. I would trade it just to let John Vesely fucking hug me. And i mean A REAL HUG. My god you should've seen the way he hugged them. I WAS PRACTICALLY BLEEDING THERE, WATCHING. I swear, he was really interacting with the audience!!!! I would trade Craig David for him because i've fucking known Secondhand Serenade back in 7th fucking grade, before it was even mainstream, before bitches here even started to sing along to "Fall for You" because it's probably the only fucking song they know. Because fuck, the first song I heard from John was "Broken" and not "Fall for You" which has been ruling the airwaves just recently. Me and Secondhand Serenade has gone through so much. His songs were practically part of my life you know? And each time I hear a song from his, I get reminded of so much fucking memories. Ugh. Feel so bummed. Of all the things I had to miss.

And yes. Before I forget. Earth Hour. 8:30-9:30. Did you take part? I was too busy moping about missing John that I wasn't really able to take part. But yeah, i noticed all the lights were out. That's good.

AND GOOD LORD, I WANT TO GO TO EFFING TRINOMA TOMORROW AND CATCH JOHN VESELY AGAIN FOR ONE LAST FUCKING TIME BECAUSE I FEEL SO BAD! :(
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In other news...

>Denise texted me and told me I was invited to PatMai's debut. Hah. Orayt. Me and Zhiela are going but plans are still fucked right now. Will be going with Denise and friends. And yes, I'll be all dolled up. Well, idk. Imma start planning this weekend. I hope Nichie and Mia will be there too. I miss my friends already.

>Beljaf's Birthday on Monday at Rockwell. I might go with Andy and Timmy since they live pretty near. Not so sure but ya, we might crash. Same day as Bianca's leave to Hong Kong for 4 days. Lucky bitch, i want to go out of town! She'll be getting us keychains and all.

> Last night I couldn't sleep and I was probably thinking too much. This random thought resurfaced into my head: Didn't Neko say he'd move to Japan after his first year of college? And i was just like, OH MY GOD YES. And so, impulsive as it was, I texted him 3 in the morning just to ask him if he's still moving there. I soon fell asleep and I woke up to his text (he replied a minute after i texted, wtf) YES, He IS moving. Suckage much. It happens again, a year later. I guess it still isn't over. I NEED to see him before he moves there this July. As if losing Lindt wasn't enough, I'd have to lose him too. It's so funny because I was worrying about the same thing last year. About Lindt going to the States and about Neko moving to Japan. A year later, it happens again. Oh idk. T_T

...God idk I felt so bad today. Idk why. Hormones, uggghh. Messed up, gah.
........On the bright side, there's April&May. :]

PS. I LOATHE MY CAMERAAAA. D:

BIG ASS EDIT:

SWEET MOTHER OF JESUS. JOHN PERFORMED VULNERABLE.
......AND I HAD TO FUCKING MISS IT.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-
PUCHA. SO PISSED.
I WAS WAITING FOR THAT SONG, SWEAR TO GOD!!!! AARRGGGHHH.
ASDFGHJKL;'
GODDAMN IT. :|
I BETTER HELLA GO TO THE SHOW TOMORROW.
OH MY GOD SO PISSED I MISSED VULNERABLE OF ALL SONGS!!! GAHD. I just really had to roam around Greenbelt and miss that, didn't I?
Well, fuck.

fully booked.

Good Afternoon.
Mmmm.
Let's get things settled.

*Plans/Events for next week/weekend:

>Saturday - Tomorrow. Yes. Haha. Secondhand Serenade @ Greenbelt with Andy, Denise and Bianca. Oh yeah, Timmy too. He's going to crash. Haha. We'll also go to the Craig David signing at Glorietta with him, since we pity him, haha. =)))). Aaanndd. EARTH HOUR. 8:30 PM. Please take part. :)

>Sunday - Secondhand Serenade Show @ Trinoma. Idk, i just want to crash it, haha. I have nothing to do, and Trinoma's such a cool place. Yesss. Also the John Legend concert, LOLOL.

>Monday- Beljaf's Birthday @ Rockwell/Rockwell Club. I doubt I'd go to his birthday since I'm dead broke and I have no one to go with.

>Tuesday - Patmai's Debut. Me and Zhiela have decided to crash it but ugh, everything's still fucked up right now. Hope this pushes through. If not, then I'll just hang at The Fort/Zhiela's house, lol.

> Wednesday/Thursday/Friday - These plans are still very unsure. Justin wants Me, Denise and Miggy to hang again so yes, anytime between these days. I'm also planning to play badminton and just hang/chill with friends at my place one of these days. And then rockband with Neko, he says I can go anytime, but ugh, it's weird. Haha.

>Saturday - Hang out with Andy, Bianca and Denise and the boys. Mmm. More random fun, haha. Hope this pushes through.

...And then i'm completely free the whole summer. O_O.
I'm guessing that's when I ACTIVATE. WHOOOO. xD.
Damn, Fully Booked this March. xD.

Plans for April/May soon. Mmm. Yesss. I think there' still ALOT of plans/events. Yesss. Haha. Like. (Very unsure, most of them are just stupid dreams, haha)

> May 16 - David Cook & Archuleta concert @ MOA.
> Denise' Birthday
>Lindt's Birthday
>Report Cards, ohshit. :|
>Enrollment.
>Subic (REALLY HOPE THIS HAPPENS)
>Spa Day
>Salon Day (Get my hair fixed finally)
>Dentist Appointment
>Sleepover at Mia's
>Paintball/Laser Tag
>BEACH!!!
>Out of town trips.

...And alot more.

Fck. I want to take summer lessons. Anything's fine. Just. Ugh. Sports preferably. DAMN IT.

Shiaattt. Everyone's going out of the country/town. Fuuu-

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And then there's today.
Craig David concert. Whooo. INSOMNIAAAA~ But yes. I'll be at home the whole day, rest day. xD. Today is my Itunes/Frostwire day. Meaning I will fix/organize my itunes and download alot of songs from Frostwire, go bandhunting and yeah. xD.

Oh and tonight's also the MYX chat session with Secondhand Serenade. Ohfuck. Bitches better log in 8pm to chat with him. I might. Idk. If i feel like it, haha. I hope I really get to meet the dude tomorrow, even if I just crash his show. xD.

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Duuuuude. I really wish I lived in a village. I wish I had my own room. I wish I had neighborhood friends. I wish there was a mall near where I live. I wish I had MONEY. I wish I had a driver. I wish for too many things.

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I miss Neko. It's been more than a year, and sometimes texts/IMs just aren't enough you know? I miss his company. So frickin' much. And I had a dream last night about errr. GAD. xD. Sucks, I hate it when i dream of him because it triggers a stupid feeling. Where are you? Seriously, the guy has completely disconnected. Like, gone. O_O.

...and I don't care anymore. HAHA! Sucks for you. =))))).

lol today @ rockwell/andy's house.

Hee. I liked today. It was randomly fun, haha.
So ya.
Rockwell/Andy's house.
Got there like 10-ish. Everyone was still asleep, wtf. Me and Andy were freaking, we had to call them. =)).
Bianca finally came. Whoooo.
Picked up Jerrell at High Street.
Sucked, fifth party didn't come. Woulda been interesting. Haha. Ohwell. :> :)).
Then Rockwell. Saw Francis at Powerstation.
We ran around Rockwell, hiding from Jerrell, haha. Hide and Seek at Rockwell was fun, lol.
Walked around, bummed.
Didn't really see any nice movie to watch so we just bought horror DVDs. Whooo. Haha.
Powerstation. God, the double air hockey was so amusing and fun, lol! We played it twice. xD.
We ran all the way going to Andy's house because Jerrell and Francis rang each and every doorbell on the way to Andy's house. (We did this twice, haha!) That was some serious funny shit, i swear to God. We had to run away because they might open the door. I swear, they rang ALL the fucken doorbells all the way to Andy's house! HAHAHA! =)))). It was srsly fun tho. =))=))=)).
We watched 28 weeks later in Andy's bedroom. Mmmm. Mcdo. And we were cuddling in her bed. Her room's freezing cold. =))). The bed and pillows and comforters were comfy. :)). Freaky movie, haha! Sick tho, the gory parts, ugh. =)))).
Tecktonik dancing! Haha. Whooo.
Skateboarding. We were planning to crash at Tom's house, haha! Planned to walk there or take Andy's car. But eh. We didn't know what to do. So we just went back in her house and watched Quarantine.
We were in the middle of watching Quarantine and the ordered pizza from Shakey's comes along. We eat. I had about 5 slices, fuck. =)))). That doesn't even count the mojos. =))).
Then while we were eating, wtf, someone was looking for andy outside. It was tom, lol! =)))). So ya, he crashed with us. Ate. And ya. Walked back to Rockwell. Rang the fucking doorbells again and ran away. So fucking fun, hahahaha. =))=)).
Rockwell, bummed. We played Hide and Seek at Fully Booked. So WTF-ing. And random, lolol! =)). Hah, it was fun though, running around Fully Booked. =))=)).
More Powerstation.
Mmmm. Yes.
More tambay.
Boys soon left.
Ice cream with Andy and Bianca.
Windowshopped.
Water Fountain. Ya.
Then, wtf, Timmy calls my cellphone all of a sudden like WTF, haha! =)))). He says he's in Rockwell raw, LOL, loser! He wasn't. But ya, he was planning to go crash Rockwell since we were there. He can just walk, he's just in Palm, lol.
Such a loser, he wanted me to go with him to the Craig David signing shit on Saturday. LONER!!! Hahahaha. Sorry, I have Secondhand Serenade that day. =)))=)).
Ayun. Timmy was actually on the way to meet up so we can hang with him, but we were already at Andy's house, lol! And ya, Bianca left.
Walked Andy back to her hosue because she was scared she might get kidnapped. =))=)).
Some dude in the park was shouting hey to us, like twice. WTF.
Then mmm. Me and Andy bonded in her room.
Kwento and stuff. Super bonding. :)
Dude. Shit. I know exactly how she feels.
Went home around 9 or 10 i think.
Whooooo.

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I want to take up Tennis at school. Rawr. Bianca's taking lessons. Gad. I want. It's like 2800 for a month, thrice a week. Fck. I really want to learn tennis! I need some excercise this summer. And it's a nice excuse to wake me up really early in the morning. A quick jumpstart to my day. Shiiittt.

I wish I was a Polo Club member. Idk. The place looks like a fun place to chill with friends.

New plans. Whooo. Next saturday, maybe. My gad. March is fully booked. D: But April and May i'm completely free. Let me get this over with: Summer starts April. Because March is for lazy ass people like me. Yesss. Haha.

Mmmm. I like this. :) I love adventures, the teenage life and all. Bonding and knowing people's secrets, it's mmm, nice. It's awesome being a shrink/teenager, haha!

I am motivated. Hell yes. \:D/.

I'm wishing for so many things. SO MANY THINGS. ~Envy~ But yesss. I'll try to work with what I have. I am motivated. Whoooo. xD.

passing afternoon.

I have motivation but I don't have ways.

I want this summer to be productive. Really productive. But it's hard. Twice hard with her around. It's complicated. I need money. A HELL LOT OF MONEY.

There's just so much shit I want to do, but it just won't happen.
Things I have no control over.
There are circumstances that won't allow it.
Fuck, idk.

This sucks.

I'm just hoping for a nice summer.
Not another one of those summers where I would just waste my days away.
I don't want that, okay.
Sure I want to bum.
But not 24/7.
I need to DO something.
I need to BE something.

Fuck, why am I even stressing.
It's summer for fuck's sakes.

Heh. It's only March. I'm still lazy.
Maybe this will change soon.
It better change.

new plans.

tonight was so fucked up yet so funny. =))=))=)).
yes. hahahaha.

I have new summer plans, but these are still very unsure:

>Hang out with Justin next week. (He asked me then signed out, wtf.)

>Hang out with Andy and her friends this Thursday at Rockwell/her house. This will be interesting. :>. I'm there to fuck everything up. Whoo. Haha. xD. And a FIFTH WHEEL will be there. :> This better be some mad shit crazy fun day. =)). Ill be helping her out and all. :> :))

>Denise's birthday. Ohfuck. I still haven't thought of a gift. And i don't have the money either, shit. Well, she'd probably treat us out like last year. I better get her something nice. :)

>Lindt meeting Miggy. LULZ. Damn, could've been yesterday. He said i should've just texted him up so he can go and chill with us. Fuck. :( Heh, there's always next time. =)). This will be funny. =)).

>Lindt's Despedida. THIS, I'M NOT SO SURE. Course i was crushed when i heard it. I started comfort eating again, fuck. Endorphins worked though, i'm fine. Eh, i doubt he's going because he said the same thing last year. Idk. My gut feeling tells me. But ya, it does suck he's not coming back. :/

....goddamn. I SERIOUSLY feel like digging up those old conversations. for the lulz, haha.

In other news, YM tonight was actually alive. O_O. For once i'm actually talking to 692852452 people at the same time. Hee, it was fun while it lasted. I love fucking things up. =)). It was just so funny to me, i was laughing the whole time. Kept me amused and entertained. Yeah. :)). It was interesting. :> =)).

plans.

Day 2 of summer and it's already murdering me. GAH. I NEED TO GO OUT. I miss my friends like effing hell already! I always have this need to talk to someone because being in this house is maddening.

Plans, I REALLY hope they push through. I'd lose it if i don't get out of here.

>Trumpets Street Dance Classes was cancelled. Nichie's mom didn't allow her. So yes, i'm still thinking of another workshop I could take...Not going for Repertory Musical Theatre classes with Denise, Nichie and Mia because we're all too lazy and it's too strict in there.

>We've decided to take summer jobs instead since we're all broke this summer. But it's pretty hard finding one that actually pays. GAH. There's Fully Booked, Teriyaki Boy, Starbucks, Mcdonald's etc. Shit, i really need one.

>Badminton at my place. I want to chill with my friends at Waltermart and Cinema Square and our roofdeck after, maybe have some kind of photoshoot up there. Then maybe even swimming and gym! Haha.

>Maybe Tennis with Denise and Miggy at the Dasma Park.

>PatMai's Debut at One Mckinley on the 31st. I'm not so sure if I was invited (I didn't get the "Golden Ticket") so i just might crash it. Oh god, i really hope this pushes through because i want to be with my friends again! Like, NEED to be with my friends. D: Zhiela lives near so she'll prolly crash and we'll have another joyride around the fort, she'll be driving us around, haha! And maybe stay late at her house, chill at the fort or somthn.

>Beljaf's Birthday at the Rockwell Club on the 30th. Then we'll all hang at Rockwell. Not so sure if i'm even going, since i have no one to go with. AND NO MONEY! :/

>Secondhand Serenade at Greenbelt on the 28th. No money so me, Denise and Andy just might crash it. But I really want to meet the dude. And if i could, i'd like to crash the trinoma show on the 29th too.

>Summer Shopping Spree with friends. This will only happen if we actually have money. HAHAHA. But I really hope this happens, i want to go shopping so badly and i want to hang with my friends.

>Trip to Subic. We'll be having another sweet ride with my brother's car. Roadtrip again, whoo! And fuck ya, subic!! Srsly praying for this to happen, my brother's up for it.

>Spa Day. Still hoping this pushes through, it didn't last year. :| I so need some good old spa lovin'. Maybe at Denise' spa or something.

>Salon Day. Cancelled getting those voyager boots I wanted, getting a new hairstyle instead. Imma get it fixed. :D

>Trip to states. I know this isn't happening, but i'm still hoping.

.....and alot more.

What I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY need right now is: MONEY MONEY MONEY

tagaytay + sleepover.

so it all starts with that bastard messing with me friday night.
dude, we ALMOST didn't go, damn asshole almost ruined the epic day.
and well ya, partly me and my bad temper, hahah.
don't blame me, i'm not the one who says random shit like "go fuck your ass hole man!"
got me so pissed. i'm so gullible that for a moment i actually thought it was my best friend who i was fighting with!
but i guess i soon figured that out since the person talked so squatter, which is sooo unlike her.
hell i even ranted to miggy for god's sakes. totally worth nothing, i ended up laughing at myself.

then next day, my friends and i just laughed it off since it was so stupid. Nichie was even like WTF?! and we just laughed while i showed them the retarded text messages. Made fun of the damn bastard, haha. =)).

then yessss. TAGAYTAY!
Mia was excited as fuck, you can see it hahah! Well we all were, lol. PICK UP TRUCK WHOOO! Roadtrip. Played songs from my iPod. Party songs and remixes. Barely partied in the car though, it was just Mia who was so super hyper the whole time, hahah. =))). Stopver at her place to change then on to Tagaytay.

It was so funny when we were there already. We all put down the windows and Mia and Zhiela started saying hi to random people. It was so funny, they were so random and wild. =))). Bliss. Totally summer vibes. They were just saying hi and shouting the most random stuff like "kamote!" hahahaha. =)).

soon finally reached tagaytay. short ride actually. got to tropical greens. really peaceful place, i like it there. it was so empty and stuff. We practically owned the road. Then zhiela out of nowhere switches with the driver and starts driving! HAHA! Joyride! Whoo! Haha! It was fun, she was driving us around the village thing.

Then we arrive. That was around 4-ish already. We were left with only one hour to swim. Oh well. Mostly tooked pics, barely swam. Hell, i need to buy a new swimsuit. :|

sunset and we're on our way to have horseback riding and picnic. perfect. ALL THE PICK UP LADIES! Haha. Oh and ya, i got this really bad wound from that stupid pool. Hurt like effing hell.

the people's park was gay so we went to the other horseback riding thing instead. sucked though that we didn't get to go picnic during sunset. daaang. :/ ohwells. hee, i caught the sunset. :D bumped into some of our batchmates at the horse riding thing. small world, haha.

mmmm. ya. it was almost night, and the stars were out already. so pretty. :) wanted to stargaze. rode the pick up truck, at the back. got super hyper and wild, haha! really though. we all got high with sexy back and we just kept on shouting in the streets, we didn't give a damn! superrr fuuuunn. :D

ate dinner at teriyaki boy in the viewing place. so wow. stargazing a bit. nice place to chill. everything was so dark and calm. niceeee. ate tempura. loise' learns about the jaime thing and starts to freak out, haha! and yess. mmm. japanese food! itadakimasu! and mmm. denise is such a mom! haha! we'd all be screwed without her. :)). and mmm. it was frickin' cold already. and i was only wearing a dress! Hah. But yes, chilling there at night was sweet. Hell we even saw Denise' tito, we had to hide her from him! Haha, yes, we kidnapped her. =)).

then just rested on the ride back home. bopped my head to the songs in my iPod, couldn't really get some sleep. then loise' house. kinda got creeped out. she has a white lady in her house. and it has that spooky vibe in it. i freaked, and so did mia. we totally chickened out hahaha. scary movie and it was the after hours already. we didn't finish "dead silence" because me, loise and mia were so scared already. eehh. the house + the time + the movie = JEEPERS CREEPERS. :O

ate lays with dip and wine. eh, didn't really like the wine. tasted weird. :| kinda finished my glass though, for hang over's sake and for me to get sober, haha. but it was too weak i guess. no effect. :p got so freaked out with the scary vibes that we all decided to just play dance revolution thingy instead on playstation haha. i danced to fall out boy's dance dance. damn, song reminds me of so much. and i love patrick stump there! he was way thinnner!

we got pretty bored and tired after, so we had open forum and deep conversation. we played spin the bottle and it was only truth. learned each other's crushes from before and such. and also learned our first impression of each other, haha. yes then we go upstairs to loise' room and bum around. we planned to stay up all night so we can all watch the sunrise together but we FAILED. hahaha. loise fell asleep first and SHAME ON ME, I FELL ASLEEP! I so didn't expect that! i'm usually up all night but i guess loise' bed was too comforting and i was too bored that i fell asleep during 3. next was denise then mia, and oh god, zhiela never slept, haha!

I can't believe i woke up 7 effing AM!!! Hahaha, that is such an achievement. :)). We decided to continue Dead Silence since it wasn't that scary anymore since it was daylight. Heh, now that i think of it, that was pretty gay of me to freak out over puppets. =))=)). It wasn't that scary, really. Watched Black Sheep after for the lulz and i swear, IT WAS SO RETARDED. Like scary movie EPIC FAIL. Oh god, i pity that movie. We were just mocking it the whole time and making fun of it hahah. =)). I got amused with Mia's PSP and surfed the net with it. Just updated my twitter..yeah. xD.

Oh and lol i remember all of us SERIOUSLY laughing our asses off to that part in the movie where like this dude throws this lighter to the group of sheep and then WTF, the sheep farts WITH THE EFFING FART SOUND and they all die and explode! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! =))=))=)). I swear, we were LITERALLY rolling on the floor laughing for more than like a minute, no shit! HAHAHAHA! I swear that movie is BONKERS! Hahahaha! =))=)) Afterwards took a shower, ate wonderful breakfast. I loved the mashed potato pie. :)

and then, mmm. so unexpected haha, we went to High Street. Wala lang, trip lang, haha. =)). so yes, we crashed high street and we were all craving for ice cream so we ate at pancake house. mmm. i loved my hot fudge brownie. :)

afterwards went to market market to buy some games. nichie was so effing happy because she got all the games she wanted, you shouldve seen the look on her face. :)). she was so happy she even treated us, haha! she all gave us a cd each and i got the ulead video editor thingy, yay! at least i can do something this summer, edit videos and stuff. soon afterwards left, and zhiela dropped us all off to our houses.

it has been 2 long days indeed.
i love my friends.
i will miss you guys so much.
keep in touch.
:)

year ender?

FUCK YA SOPHOMORE YEAR HAS JUST ENDED.

YAY.

Incoherent, but let me try to form coherent sentences and make an epic year ender. I'll try.

Okay you know what i'm too lazy.

All i know is.

Sophomore year is over. FINALLY.

It was great, seriously. Not as bad as i thought it would be.

Nothing beats freshman year though, but i'd have to say it's a tie. They're both awesome in their own ways.

So much has happened this year. Keeping pace with everyone and everything and things happened.

I have changed as well. Matured. And yeah. I had alot of firsts, too many i lost count.

And now i can honestly say that I AM A TEENAGER. This year made me feel those so called "teenage years" and it has only just begun.

I remember being miserable and pretty bitter during the first few months of school, and to how being stable and happy i've become throughout the year. Heh. My friends are awesome. This year would be bullcrap without them. They were pretty much the highlight of my year. I love them so much.

Mmmm. Classmates? Nothing to say. Seriously, i feel like i just spent this school year alone. Not that i hate them or anything, i just don't feel them, ya know? So ya. Bye. Sorry if i was too emo for you. Haha.

Yeah.

So in 2 months, i will be a junior, and i'm still not used to that fact. I FEEL SO OLD DAMMIT! But yes. JUNIOR YEAR. PROM. And other crazy shit. I can't wait.

Meantime, there's summer. I will be as active as i can. I want it to be a really productive one. I'm working on so much.

Okay you know what this is isn't working. We all know i'm too lazy to do this. Haha. And besides, i need some good old nostalgia tripping to get me worked up on making a pretty epic year ender. Which is not happening. Maybe when nostalgia hits me which will pretty much happen soon. Just you wait.

Tomorrow!

>TAGAYTAY WITH FRIENDS TOMORROW, AND SLEEPOVER AT LOISE' HOUSE AFTER. It will be EPIC. Fuck ya. With a pick up truck? Things will get fucking wild. :>

I'll tell you what's exciting:

> Zhiela's pickup truck = awesome roadtrip. Course we'll get hella, crazy. Haha. Teenagers. We'll blast party songs out loud and party in the car, hahah.
>Stopover, buy food for the picnic. We are so pigging out at KFC, haha!
>ROADTRIP, JOYRIDE, SOUNDTRIP, PURE BLISS. ~SUMMER VIBE~
>Picnic at Tagaytay at the park picnic thingyyy! KFC goodness, mmm. :>
>Crashing random places around tagaytay, haha.
>Swimming at Tropical Green!
> DRINK!!!! Someone better bring some fucking booze! We're getting drunk. :> HAHAH. Nah, we'll just get fucking high. =))).
>Photoshoots!!!
>Horseback riding, lol.
>Stargazing. This is the part i'm really looking forward to, i've always wanted to do this with friends. :)
>HIGH AT ZHIELA'S CAR, LOL! It happens. =)).
>Loise' house. Chill and hang out. Stay til' the sun comes up.
>Have a DVD marathon at her house. Freak ourselves out with scary movies, lol. Total sleepover.
>Open forum, deep conversations.
>Walk around her village and stargaze, chill and hang out during the after hours.
>Wait for the sun to come out, watch the sunrise together.
>Fall asleep together, hahah.
>Zhiela brings us home, more roadtrip! haha.

Look out for:

>Summer plans.
>Summer to do list.
>Yearender.

i am hardcore shit.

Today we had an inspection because of some irresponsible bastard and i ended up getting a MAJOR behavioral report and an F in conduct. FML.

BUT FUCK YA I'M HARDCORE!!!

Hahaha. Shut it, i'm awesome that way. :>

Heck, i don't even feel bad about it! I feel so AWESOME. Haha. Seriously. What's high school without getting in trouble? That's so gay, seriously. A clean, sparkly, shiny record and all. Mine's tainted now. It has that big bloody fat F in it and a major behavioral report but fuck, i feel great! Haha. I'm hardcore shit, mothereffers! :>

And another reason for my unexplainable happiness today (okay maybe i'm just high) was that effing phone call. 8D. Yeah, hearing his voice for the first time over my cellphone was ~pure bliss~ And to think he's like 3950581 miles away from here! Hee, just so awesome of him to call me.\:D/

The sucky part about today though, is the fact that i won't be seeing neko. SUCK IT. He was supposed to tutor me today since it's my math periodical test tomorrow but college life is screwing him up, so he won't make it sadly. :( It sucks because it's been EXACTLY a year since i last saw him. Hell i can even make an anniversary! March 19 last year was seriously the last time i've seen the dude. I can't believe i haven't seen him for an effing year already! I miss ya buddy. Damn. Supposed to celebrate my "last time of seeing neko anniversary" today by seeing him again after exactly a year and reviewing frickin' algebra at tower. And catching up for good time's sake. Sigh. Well there's always rockband at his house, haha!

Other things:

> I can't believe i am officially DONE with research. The fact that i survived an effing year with the terror teacher is proof that i am awesome. xD.

> I also can't believe i survived this year with my class. I just let the days go by, and wow, in a few weeks time i'll have new classmates again. I can't believe i made it through a year with them. I badly wanted to get this year over with.

> This year wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. It was pretty fucken awesome, actually. Had so much firsts and so much more. (Will soon post a yearender)

>And ya, yesterday i went to clark. Pretty rad place. Wish we just drove off straight to subic, but yes, skipping the last regular school day of this school year wasn't that bad. Doesn't matter, not like i missed anything. A quick getaway is nice, and i'm totally feeling the summer vibe.