without love.

today was fun, i guess.

my sleeping schedule got fixed and i'm just hoping i'll be able to keep it up.

went out today with vick, pia, steff and vitt in greenbelt.

so much fun. :D

nightmare on elm street was funnehh, okay. =)))

like it was scary but perverted at the same time. HAHAHAH.

and i made an awesome discovery today.

mcdonald's ketchup has nos. 1-6. WTF STEFF. =)))))

1 should be the most sour while 6 is the sweetest.

WTF I SWEAR WE WERE SO ALIW. =))

so there are like, 6 types of ketchup. WTF. =))))) HAHAHAHAH.

tomorrow, tristan won't be in podium. :( GUHHH. i hope MTE won't be there, so i won't be distracted, lol. Eh, i'd rather leave things the way they were last time.

don't want to leave trumpets with a baaaad memory. :(

weeeell, i'm just going to watch their play next tuesday then.

i hope it will be a good day. :D

sucks that streetdance will be over soon. like next week. :(

aaaand. i really want to go to arrested on friday. :[ but i have no ride home. GODDAMETTTT. i miss open parties. :/ i swear, i've been craving for a party lately. and i want to drinkkk. AKSDJAKLFJSDFKDJGDFKGJHFD !!

Trees are nice. :">

MY FB WALL HAS SUDDENLY TURNED INTO COUGARTOWN, OMG. HAHAHAHA. =)))

ah well, tonight was funny. chatting with random people about my dream boy. 8-> my friends are evil, okay. =)))) Pursue Future Boyfriend, WTF GUYS. =))))) And yes, we are COUGARS. AHAHAHAHA. I love you Mia and Loise! Chatted with Denise too! I missed her! :) So funneh. We chase the boys we could never have. HAHAHA. Excited for Ateneo, though! I have motivation now. OHOHOHO. HAHAHA. Puro nalang boys eh. =))) I swear, I HAVE to get into Ateneo. =)))) And, i'm actually considering dorms now. Oohhh. :> INDEPENDENCE, FCK YEAH! Jayjay is mean. TREES ARE NICE. HAHAHAHA. Ang samaaaa. Pero natawa ako ah. =))))

lethargic.

i swear, i've been so lethargic. @-)

• ONE TREE HILL! I just started this morning and i really like it! i used to watch it before but i never really kept track. aahhh nathan and lucas! idk i like them both eh. HAHA. =))
• oi! kopio's baaaaaaack! :O
• no moar tennis. wala, bigla akong tinamad. HAHAHA.
• didn't go to the 3A thingo today. tamad pa rin. HAHAHA.
• didnt go to enrollment either. HAHAHA TAMAD!!! but yeah, got enrolled. whoa, senior year. @-) i like the books. imma read them na. :D
• will watch glee's laryngitis now. yay. :D
• don't know about trumpets tomorrow. don't know whether we still have streetdance in the morning. :/ meeeehhh. i actually don't care about the fair anymore. im too tamad to care. HAHAHA. bahala na. =))))

carry out.

• STREETDAAAAANCE !! oh god, so major totally stoked now!! :D can't wait for the EPIC showcase. i'm missing camp for it, fuck it. =)))) learned a new choreography today, and i can totally see now the whole thing. it's so cool kaya! :-bd i was placed beside kayla, the best dancer in class. DOES THAT MEAN SOMETHING? :O HAHA. i mean, i don't know, i just noticed that sir just places me wherever the good dancers are...HAHAHA KAPAL. =)))) but yeah, i totally feel like crap next to her. :( she's just so darn good eh!! BV. HAHA. but i must practice, practice, practice! i have to get better! if only i had a dancing partner i could practice with. pero wala eh, zhiela left na. fucker. [-(
• FAAAAAIR!!! i. am. so. stoked. like. asjkdhaskjahjasklfjalks!!!!! i can finally see hot/cute boys everywhere!! HAHAHA. NO IM SRS. =)))) i'd love to meet new people! ahihihihi :"> and i get to see my trumpets crushes!! omggg, so excited i can't even!! aahhhh!!
• ENROLLMENT is tomorrow. oh gosh, here we go, visual arts! i hope senior year will be good. i'll be going with my mom to enroll tomorrow. ah, school. @-) and 3A's having this thingo in market market. laser tagggg! don't know yet whether i should go or not.
• TENNIS - okay, i made my mind up. i'm taking tennis every MWF, 9:30 -11 am. i don't know, i guess it will do me some good. meh. :p will enroll tomorrow. GOODBYE BUMMING AROUND AND STAYING UP ALL NIGHT DAYS. :(

PRIORITIES ARE CONTINUALLY CHANGING.

HAHAHAHA. CLE LESSON = BRB APPLYING IN REAL LIFE. =))

ah, i don't know. 8-| as much as i am committed to camp, i have my own goals too. and didn't camp teach me to go after my goals? well now i'm applying it.

but it just strikes me how excited i was to get back to camp last year.

things change.

sigh.

i wish there was a way to this. but in the end if i really had to choose...i'd pick trumpets.

even if that means camp will be 5 days in palawan, in the beach, with my friends.

i don't know...i mean, camp was probably the best thing's that's ever happened to me last summer and maybe this summer, i was meant for something else.

maybe there was a reason i skipped the trumpets play i had during first year.

it's my time to shine on stage.

it's finally my time.

DUDE I LIKE, TOTALLY MISS TENNIS.

i haven't played in AGES. like, i don't know, 2 months or something? /:) SHIT. i swear, i miss the sport! i miss training team! i miss the awesome coaches! i miss everythingabout it! (and i sure as hell miss hitting the ball hard to put all of my frustations away! HAHA)

i swear, i need some sports in my life right now. i need something to keep my mind off things. i need an outlet. i need something to wake up early in the morning for. i need that feeling of fulfillment, satisfaction, i need something to motivate me...and tennis gives me all of those.

and the fact that i've been such a couch potato and bum these days..AND i've been eating nothing but fast food and junk jesus christ! man i need the exercise alright :| gots to get back to being healthy and in shape!

i hope it's not too late! i mean, may just started right? :D there were batches before and i think i can catch up. hopefully my mom would agree to this. i just need it in my life right now. :( i'm thinking of joining when we enroll this wednesday. yay! just hope i can find a good schedule, gah. :/

happy mother's day!

today was a good day, even though it just started for me. :))

life is good. :D

movies, books, and food make me happy. :)

and of course, we heart it! so much love there hihihi.

went to rockwell today.

FINALLY, A MALL AFTER 923812039103 YEARS.

i got a new book (dear john) and candy magazine! plus DVDs and the little prince i borrowed! YAY.

gosh, i'm so babaw. @-)

happy mother's day, mommy. :)

and of course, my mom. :)

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started reading dear john, and oh my gaaaaaash! i like it so far. :D i'll continue it later. wheeee.

dude i want to surf....HAHAHA. no srsly! it looks cool kaya!! but i hate the ocean. :( but still, it looks flippin' cool! :D

and stupid DVD player is stupid. 8-| BV.

and duuuuude! i want shoes! those effing vans shoes! :'( they're so nice eh.

no actually, i just want to shop for ALOT of things right now. sigh sigh sigh. :(

and, i miss partying. GAAAHH. idk why. i swear, i wouldn't mind having my 1 tequila floor experience all over again. @-) HAHAHA. idk, i guess i just miss being bad. >:) OHOHOHO. no srsly. i do miss being bad. i miss going crazy. i miss the long, crazy, epic nights i felt alive. i miss the feeling of being unstoppable, fearless. aahh, first times. @-) =))

but lalala, those days are far long gone. i've stayed sober and clean for half the year already. @-)

but i wouldnt mind doing it all over again! HAHAHA.

it's the bitch of living.

• SPRING AWAKENING! listening to it again. why in the world did i miss when it was showing here? /:) whyyyy. effing ondoy. :| no wonder rachel's voice sounded so familiar in glee! I WAS LISTENING TO HER DURING SOPHOMORE YEAR WTF. =))) and jonathan groff! AAAHHH. the power couple! GODDAMNIT, how can i not know they were from spring awakening? /:) fail realization. i really want to watch it na!
• MUSICAL THEATRE! I swear i'm coming back. i miss it too much. glee inspires me. and to think i'm back in trumpets! the more i'm craving for that feeling. eh. i just want to perform again. i miss the feeling of fulfillment i get.
• I FEEL OLD. I swear, SDTA kids never fail to make me feel old. :( BV. they're all just so young! i feel so old ajsdklajskldaskda;da!!!! it's like, i've been there, done that. 8-| :/
• ZOOEY DESCHANEL toffee says i look like her ahihihihi. bloody mushroom asian hair. ugh. full baaaangs. ah well, it's cute anyway. HAHA. new look wheee!
• DISNEY KID! to get away from reality, sometimes it's nice to be a kid. :)
• VERY INCOHERENT: that's me right now. LALALALA~
• I HAVEN'T GONE OUT FOR A WEEK BUT I DON'T CAREEEEE~ everyone has their own thing going on. i got mine too. it's not much tho. :/ OHWELL!!!!! fuck you, review classes.
• RANZ BIRTHDAAAAAY he made libre sa yellow cab YAY. first time i went out with the SDTA kids. meh, they're okay. just not my type of group. i wish i had other friends...

get ready for the showdown !

been listening to black eyed peas. i swear i love their music. they make me want to daaaance.

there's a 3A outing soon! i'm excited, i miss those kids. maybe next wednesday and they're planning a trip to batangas (whoa, again!) before may 20. i just hope it doesn't hit on the day of my dance classes, gahhh. :/ and denise's birthday is up! may 13. i need to get her a gift. and kevin's going back here on may 14. but then there's the trumpets fair around that time. i'm excited. :D

sigh, everyone has review classes. i have so much epic plans in mind but they feel useless without the money, transpo and friends. none of which i have at the moment. :( i guess i'll be spending most of my days at home now, but i'm alright, i guess. i get to save more money and buy more stuff for myself. :D and i have projects to keep me occupied. and a couple bunch of shows i have to marathon and movies i have to watch.

damn i look so asian with my hair. like korean. idk. full bangs faaaaail. :O don't know how i'm supposed to work with this kind of hair. ohwell. :-j it's pretty fucked right now. like i didn't see that coming. 8-|

colormekatie is such an inspiration. i've got some ideas to work on. for now, i made 'don't rain on my parade' as my first set of colormekatie inspired project pictures.

i miss partying. i just want to go crazy. if i could, i'd do the 1 tequila floor experience all over again. =)) i'm not even kidding.

and i miss the beach. :( i belong to the sand, sea and waves. i miss the peace and calm of everything. i just want to get away again. to run away. i'd do anything to get away from this place.

but god, i swear. I REFUSE to get dark the next time i go to the beach. Like, i won't even go out. I'll just stay in. @-) HAHAHA. No, i'm serious! I can't grow any darker than I already am! :'( And to think I just started putting on whitening cream (which is really effective!) HAHA. 3A's outing is on May 16-17, YES! thank god it won't hit my dance classes! yaaay! I think i'll go. :D and goddamn, WHITE SAND BEACHES FUCK YEAAAHHH!! i'm excited. i hope it pushes through, srsly. :D I don't mind going to Batangas the second time around. @-) and, imma save up for it. :D we'll be staying in Rose Gold Beach Resort. :D pretty place! :D I'D DO OUR BATANGAS BEACH TRIP ALL OVER AGAIN IF I COULD! \:D/ snorkelling, stargazing, here i goooo! :D AND THEY HAVE FLOATING COTTAGES ON SEA WHAT.

okay, will continue my GLEE marathon now. i miss it na. :D gosh, i love the home episode. and YES, this means I will download all the songs again. =)))) such a gleek! L-)

OH MY GOSH I LOVE GLEE! TOO MUCH LOVE I CAN'T EVEN

JESSE ST. JAMES I THINK I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU

WHY ARE YOU GAY

OKAY I'M SORRY I LOVE GLEE TOO MUCH

I AM PROUD TO BE A GLEEK! L-)

ALWAYS GIVES ME THE GOOD VIBESSSSS! :D

HAROOOO.

Lalalala. Trumpets. :D

Conflict. :(

Eh. Teen Camp and the dance showcase thingo are on the same date! OHNOES. :( major bummer! :'( I wish it was possible to go to both but I don't know anymoreeeee. :( final practice is on the 26th while the showcase is on the 27th. Teen Camp's around 24 to 28. Damn son. :| It still might be in Palawan, though. Not sure because Tita might not make it due to her surgery. Gah. Just hope things work out for me. :|

Eeeee! :-x So excited for the trumpets fair thingo. :"> AHIHIHI. ;)) HOT BOYS PART 2! HAHAHA! =)) I love erika! She's so awesomeeee. And we both like the same guys. teehee. :"> So many cute boys in Trumpets! I simply must meet them all! @-) HAHAHA. I swear, I want to make so much new friends in trumpets. Damn son, I wish I enrolled in other classes as well to meet more new people.

Aaaaand, I feel old. :( The people in my class are all younger than me! :'( BV LIFE! HAHA BITTER. =)) Ah, regrets. Well. :-j Wala na rin akong magagawa. Tumatanda nako. :)) But they make me feel young. B-) They make me wish I did more things in life when I was younger. :p

Trumpets is faaaahn. More bonding and yeaaaah. :> Awesome, awesome people. And yes, my happy crush! Peter Pan! :) It's nothing, though. Hehe. :"> And gosh, I hate being dark. BV. :( Going to make myself white again, I must! :O And I cut my hair. Teeheee. :"> Got bored and I felt like crap. You know, the usual feeling when I cut my hair. Usual reason. Eh, well. @-) I hope this hairstyle works out for me. :P

Okay, WOW I made a blog post. HAHAHA. I feel hyper. @-). Watching GLEE now. Missing so much shows, gah adgajkdhasdal; One last month! Must make the most out of it. >:)

and duuuuuude! i am so totally bummed! i want my review classes...NOW! I feel so useless. :( I mean I know it's bullshit because eventually i'll get lazy but I want to be out with people everyday! MOTHEREFF. everyone's out taking review classes while i'm just at home. BV LIFE. [-( takte. june pa saken. :/ Everyone seems to be enjoying their review classes and making so much friends and ugh, BV, i feel so distant and isolated! i wish i can change my schedule, but it's too late. :(

Sunkissed in Batangas! :)

Here goes the epic photoblog! :)

FRIDAY: April 30,2010.

• Loise came with her jejemon shirt. HAHAHA.
• Went shopping around SM/Glorietta/Greenbelt/Landmark.
• Got picked up at Shell, Magallanes.

• Starbucks! Cup of Awesome. :> From now on we shall never use our real names. Every time we buy something, we have a theme and pick out a name. :> And I finally gots the peppermint mocha i've been craving for ages!
• Fun Roadtrip! We stayed up til' 3AM talking about the most random stuff. Funny crap. :)) JEJEMON WAKEKEMON! xD. Ghost stories! :O LOL AT NICHIE'S TITO MAKING THE RANDOM "OHHHH!" NOISE HAHAHAHA. we died. =)) I don't even know why we screamed. =))

SATURDAY: May 1, 2010.

• Arrived at our own little house around 3AM. Sleeeeep. I couldn't sleep though. :( Stayed up til' sunriseeee...which was a fail. =))

• Saw the most adorable and nicest dog ever! Hershey! :) I love it to bits. :)

• Went for a little morning swim after some yummy breakfast. :D

• Me at the beach, finally after 7 years! :D Ahhh, glorious sunlight. 8D

• More bumming out at the deck and whatnot, more pictures. 8D.

• Nichie's cute pink flipper thingos! :D

• Cup of Awesome! We all put our names on the plastic cups to save em'. Cool beans.

• Awesome lunch, and got our hair braided! Wore our booties as well. We feel like Lara Croft. Haha! We were going to go Intro Diving soon. :> Ohohoho!
• Diving was...an experience, alright. ;) Sadly, I have no picture of myself in my super badass diving suit. :( Nichie's Tito was my DM. I went 30 feet under the sea in 30 minutes! I saw Dory and Nemo, haha. :))

• Dinner was yummy. Stargazing at the beach was lovely! It was beautiful. :) It was amazing! The sky was wow, just wow. Wonderful. :)
• Lied down on the deck and got i don't know, high? HAHAHA. So much hipster/jejemon/wakekemon/sabawness going on, my gosh. =))

SUNDAY: May 2, 2010.

• Awesome breakfast and can I just say that they play such good music? :) Nirvana, Goo Goo Dolls, awesome songs! Painted our nails afterwards. Got mine painted blue. We were supposed to put waves in them but we didn't have time.

• Admiring the super chillax view. :)

• Went snorkelling afterwards. It was so cool! Haha. I like it way better than diving, I guess. I'm too scared of the water. HAHA!

• Had effing cramps right after lunch. :( I decided not to go snorkelling anymore and just stay in the room to rest. :(

• Felt better after taking the meds, surprisingly. HAHAHA. I started taking pictures everywhere with my macbook, which was retarded and hilarious. =)) Photobooth fail! =))

• More retardation on the deck with Loise and Nichie. We started doing continuous jump shots. It was hilarious! =)) HAHAHA.

• Since I couldn't dive/snorkel with them, I was left alone for awhile. Decided to chill at the dining place. It had a beautiful view. :)

• Spent time drawing the view ala alexis bledel from sisterhood of the travelling pants. ;) Relaxed and listened to some cool summer music. :)

• Sunset time. :> Went in our summer dresses to watch the sunset. It was beautiful. :) Sunset photoshoot! Such beautiful pictures! :)

• Had a nap afterwards. Woke up and it was 9PM, wow. Left Planet Dive. :( Late Dinner at the binalot place. Such yummy place. Got home around 12 or 1.

Had the greatest time with great people! I will miss the beach. :( Back to reality. Nothing to look forward to anymore. :-<>