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> NO SCHOOL ON MONDAY, YAYZZZ. Moved to June 15, fuck yeah!

>RANT 1: I am so MOTHERFUCKING sick of always being that girl that they find pretty/cute but NOTHING MORE THAN THAT. I feel like BULLSHIT okay? Because looks will never get you anywhere. I feel like fucking bullcrap, you know? YES YOU KNOW. Vitwater you know? It's just that, I always feel like people only like me for the physical qualities, but never really who I am. If I was buttface ugly, would you even get the fucking chance to know me? I feel like they don't see through the physical features and yeah. It can get really tiring and annoying from time to time because it makes you feel like shit, you know? BITWATER YOU KNOW!!! That you can never be anything more than that fucking face. It makes you feel supremely shitty. When you're trying to prove so much yet no one really sees through it. And SO FUCKING WHAT if i'm one of the goddamn guys. That's just who I am. Take it or leave it.


>Rant 2: And when I do attract guys, IT'S ALWAYS THE WRONG GUYS. I'm only asking for ONE guy, jesus christ. Is that so hard! Why can I never get a guy that will like me back? I am just so goddamn sick and tired of waiting, argh.

>Rant 3: YOU. Why the fuck do you keep on popping in and out of my life, argh. Small world, small world. Just when...ugh. I'm just...sick of it, okay? At least for once, DON'T MESS IT UP GOOD GOD.

Lol my life. Yes just a mini rant/breakdown there.

Anyways I kinda noticed something with myself lately.

I haven't been really eating much. Seriously, ask the campers. I NEVER eat when I'm with them. And when I do, i barely eat. You can't even consider what I'm eating is a meal. And when I do eat, I HAVE to force myself. Like I really HAVE to force myself. I feel so shitty when I eat something. Like i cant eat it properly and yeah. I even feel like puking it out, and i feel disgusted with myself when I force myself to eat something.

Ack i dont know whats wrong with me! I just kinda lost my appetite i guess. Idk why tho. Its so weird. I lost some weight from it but I really didnt plan on losing some in the first place.
The campers/staffers ALWAYS have to force me to eat or they would treat me out just to eat.

I dont know wtf is wrong with me!!!

And i really want to try being a vegetarian..yeah. really serious.

Have so much to say alot has been happening but whatevs. School will start next week and life goes on. Haayyzzz. Aryt. See you when I see you.