fuck

whats with your ym?

Dunno

Waiiiit

brb

dads asking for something

brb

okay.

okay back

what is it?

What dyou wanna talk about?

eh, its too much

so thats why

i was asking if

we could talk

like in real life

noooo

what?

just talk now na

:))

why?

you really dont want to see me?

no

id rather just talk now

are you too busy?

well, i cant.

we're here anyway

i mean

its too much shit

and its better if its in real life

and not on facebook cause their chat thingy sorta sucks :))

whaaat?

theres gonna be shit?

like what?

tell me

but i want to tell you in real life.

because it would be so much easier for me.

im in the same room as my mom

and i have to contain myself, okay.

dude

just tell me what its about

if i tell you does that mean we won't get to talk about it in real life

its not something you talk over online eh.

and facebook chat sucks!! if it were ym id think about it

Srsly?

Its the same thing

just

smaller

and it makes an annoying sound when you get a message

if its annoying

then we should just talk about it

in real life

without the annoying sounds

:))

...

Dude

please just tell me

ITS A LOOOOOOOOOONG

thing

its something

to REALLY talk about okay.

seriously

gyst

noooooo

cant we meet up gab

i thought we were past loooooong talks that make me sad

doesnt it make me sad too

:|

It makes me sad cause i thought you were done with it

and thats what makes me sad

...

wait shit i dont get it

=))=))

see this is why we should talk in real life

it hurts me that you cant even set aside some time for a friend thats hurting

are you avoiding me?

and yeah, another thing why i dont like to talk online. waiting for a reply is so skdhasjkdahd everythings really better off settled if we meet up gab.

umm

okay

its just sorta busy

this week

every single day?

you cant really be fully booked the whole day, right? i mean, your lessons probably take up an 2 hours or something

yea then i usually hang with friends after

...

but arent i a friend.

gab youre hurting me

youve never been this cold to me

im sorry i just had to say it

it just really hurts right now

that you act like i was never someone that meant something to you okay

Is it cause i didnt talk to you during antioch?

Huh?

No!

Its just that I know youre busy

you were in a group

but I feel like i dont matter to you anymore

i was still sharing

Its not thaaaaaaaaat.

I'm just not used to you being a bit cold to me, is all.

And i know i shouldnt even feel this

but it sucks okay

but fuck my feelings

so when are you free to talk?

i'll get back to you

Maybe wednesday

Not too too long i hope

I'm not sure about wednesday

why not.

I'm just asking for a day Gab.

A day.

would you please give me your time

im begging for your time and attention and effort

im sorry

if im asking for too much

but i just need to talk to you

i know ill feel better when i do

it would really help alot

hmm

wednesday or thursday

but i cant do a day nga

okay.

i have guitar everyday

what time

1-2

then badminton some days

im not asking you to ditch guitar badminton

im just asking when youre free

maybe 2 pm onwards or something

But you need to tell me whats it it we're talking about

What do you think it is?

I dunno

srsly

And if i tell you, would you cancel

meeting up with me?

something saddening

no

i wont

Is that why? Youre scared of being sad again?

as long as its reasonable

Well how about me! I've been sad.

Yes also

seeing me wont help

And if this is what it takes

to make me feel better

then im hoping you could at least

help

Because i'm not going to you

because i need you back or anything

if thats what youre thinking

i know

Right now, I could really use a friend.

i know

But seeing me wont help

If anything

Why not.

you think that, but i dont think that.

just give me a chance

to explain my side, please.

we should distance each other until we're truly ready to see one another

hear me out.

I AM READY

god let me just talk to you

and youll understand.

We're talking now

Tell me what its about

Dont worry

I wont ditch

I cant.

My mom is here.

Please.

...

You cant type?

With your mom around?

Why not?

Well i cant act like im okay with her around.

gab, i need a confrontation, okay.

because

We dont need to get into anything now

right now. all youre considering is your way of dealing with things

how about mine?

just tell me the gyst

does any thingi say even matter anymore?

im not considering mine

then what do you want?

i wanna know what im getting into when i see you?

Are you ready to see me?

Maybe not

Why not?

I dont know

Its strange

Why is it strange?

theres tension

There isnt.

if you'd give me a chance

to reconcile our differences

Basta i wanna know if its gonna be something sad or what/

and just talk dude.

Dude

I dont know!

I said YES nga

I'll go

We just really need to talk before I can heal

okay?

But stop pushing what your feelings on mine

Its a vital step

what do you mean?

"theres tension" -me

so you want to be numb

and indifferent

towards what i feel?

is that it?

"theres none" -you

you feel no sympathy for me?

Listen muna

wait

i dont get it

You just pushed your feelings on top of mine

like yours are always right

huh?

Dude

waaaaai

what did i do wrong?

i just said that we didnt tension

anymore

wait explaain

gah its much better settled in real life its so complicated hereeee

No

this happens alot

actually

Im sorry

what happens?

i was a dick

but you

are a bitch.

i know.

im sorry too.

Always push your feelings on top of mine

i never really noticed

even just now i didnt

and im sorry okay?

maybe i have to clean my ears or something

but eh, it would be nice

if you pointed out my mistakes to me

No

to help me acknowledge it and learn from it

I am so not game to do that

why not.

i dont want to

hurt you anymore.

by being

insensitive

with the things i say

SHIT
HAHA

what?

I was about to say

I dont want to hurt your feelings anymore

see.

at least we both want that

Then you typed the same

loll

Exactly

o there

see

this kind of thing

i was aiming for this kind of talk

so

if its going to be sad or not

you just have to trust me

that by the end of it, we'll be okay.

because thats the only reason i want to talk to you

i just want both of us to stop hurting and be okay

and see where we went wrong

Ive stopped hurting

good for you

But i do everytime i see you sad

Okaaaay?

that's why i need to do this talk with you

for me stop hurting

and we can both be happy

Okay

There

See

?

Was that so hard? :))

a bit

well

...

thats what she said

Soo

... :|

well

at least we both know that we both want whats best for us.

Sure

you sure

youre not free tomorrow?

im not sure about wednesday

not tomorrow eh

cant

if its on wed or thurs

what time?

2pm onwards

crap, I really dont know. :|

Im a bit busy this week

adkajsdskdjhaa

but i really need to do this

i was hoping nga today eh

So next week nalang

but your phone was dead.

no please

this has to be settled

i dont want to hurt anymore

urgh

When then?

check your sched then get back to me

ugh i dont even know

can i just randomly crash your house :|

Nope

my block is being labo bec we have this thing

Im sorry

ive banned this

why not

from everyone

whyyyyy

why are you pushing all of us awaaaay~

Im not :))

at all

youre pushing me away though.

but yeah.

Im not either

it feels like it

im keeping my distance

:c

exactly.

till im ready

ready to?

will you just please consider my feelings too?

I am.

thats why

i gave you your distance.

why else did i stop talking to you

because i respected your decision.

but please consider mine too

because unlike you, im still hurting

you have it so much easier :c

Okay

Hey.

I hope youre not upset.

I'm sorry, okay?

But you being a stranger to me, just really hurts. It hurts worse than the break-up to be honest.

are you still there?

Yes

do you want to say something?

Did i say something to piss you off?

Nope

Naw man

Im just tired of drama

I'm sorry.

Im not saying what you're saying is drama

But this thing in general

I know, I feel the same.

Is

But I deal with differently. I have to face it and feel it, okay?

I'm sorry for bringing drama again

but this thing we got ourselves into - it involves both of us.

we both have a say and i was just hoping you could hear me out

and yeah, im sorry for hurting you again.

i really am, gab.

i wish all of this would stop soon

Yea me too

so get back to me about your sched

Just text me

or something

My phone hass batt once again

I gtg

Hey.

make time for either wednesday or thursday for me at least, please?

im really not sure

but i hope you can go on both days, if ever.

Okay i'll try

Prolly not both days

night

10:42pm

yeah i know that:p

okay, goodnight.

im sorry again