currently..

1:49 AM
I really want to type in a few things I have to say but i'm pretty sidetracked by the stupid koreanovela my mom's watching. having the tv near the computer's a bitch. i just want my own space right now, gah.

1:59 AM
Okay, it's been 10 minutes and I still can't type in something. Currently listening to Third Eye Blind's Jumper on youtube, because Last FM is such a dick. Apparently, I have used up the free trial of the Last Fm radio. Mothereffer. Will try to type something soon, once everyone else here hits the sacks except me.

2:02 AM
I wish I hadn't left my mcdonald's chicken sandwich in denise's fridge at her house. It's waiting for me to eat it. I can practically hear it calling me. O_O Maybe my mind's just playing tricks on me.

2:24 AM
Ah, motherfucker, i will never get this bitch done til they all just fucking fall asleep which will prolly be hours from now. Goddamn. Can't they already?! I'm about to write up a storm here.

...Might as well start now. I'll try.

Things have been pretty crazy lately.

Last night I was online again and well, there came more mindfucks. Seriously, we were all just giving each other mindfucks, i didn't know what to do anymore. So i kinda somehow lost it in the process so I pretty much tricked miggy into thinking i was fucking high or something. Props to kevin for telling me i was doing a good job. That was some good payback there. So Apex invited me last night to come hang with him and Stefo at Rockwell on Monday. It's kinda wtf-ing tho, it's like fate doesn't want me to. SumoSam burned up or something I heard, so i'm not so sure if Rockwell will be open on Monday. Kind of doubt it. Maybe it's fate's way of saying it's not really a good idea. Even my heart says the same thing after viewing all those pictures tonight. Pretty much realized again that it's fucking REALITY i'm dealing with here.

And today, I went to denise's spa. Had some good hand and leg massage while making kwento to her. God i love that place, the music and vibes and the COLLDDD AIRCON was the shit. We ate at Mcdo afterwards and started talking about shit. MEN. Swear to god, they complicate things. And we pretty much spilled out everything we had to say to each other. I don't even want to discuss it. It's too fucked up. GAH. We went to chill at her house after and talked more, went online, had no one to bug which sucked. And now i'm baaaccckk.

im kind of tired from EVERYTHING that i dont even want to talk about it or blog shit but for some reason i feel like im obligated to say something.

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Ahahahaha. you stupid fuck. don't get your hopes up too high, kid. you're too late. i feel kind of sorry for you actually. don't believe in everything you hear. and considering that you're pretty gullible, ha. you dont know who you're dealing with. so, watch out. i just might give you the biggest mindfuck of the century. just sayinggg.

and god your smug face is creeping me out sweet baby jesus!
seriously tho, stop it. :|

i had alot of to say but i guess it all pretty much comes down to this. im not in the right mind or whatever to blog. give me some time. i might go hermit mode again this week, lol if ever that is even possible with all these plans.

monday i have tennis in the morning and denise will be enrolling in school at the same time so she might catch me during my lessons. SHAAAMMEEE. aha. and then idk if the whole hanging out with apex and stefo thing pushes through. im thinking twice about going actually.

and friday is so random. ill be playing basketball at school with denise and kevin, prolly miggy too since he lives near.

all i really want right now are my girlfriends. god i miss them, and i miss hanging out and all. it makes me forget all the bullshit in the world. i need them to remind me again how its like to not be involved with boys and all that crap.

and it really sucks having parental unit 24/7. im still not used to it even if it's been more than a month already. sure i may have gained her trust and she might even allow me to stay out late and grant me more freedom but it can't spare me from the paranoia i feel everytime im out with people im not supposed to be with. its nervewracking thinking if ill ever get caught soon.

and god may is so fucked up! the whole ek/sleepover thing + denise birthday + david archuleta and cook thinggg. god, dont even get me started. you know how i am with upcoming events/concerts. i get SUPER stressed. i hate it so much. ill try to be chill about it as much as possible and just let things be i guess.

im so -__-'' right now.