fml.

I am so pissed.
Jesus.

It's just so fucking unfair okay.
I mean seriously.
I've been TRYING.
But maybe I haven't tried hard enough.

Motherfucker man. It's such a piss off.
It's like there's this fucking conspiracy against you.
Like the world creates these circumstances to make you miserable.
Like there are forces stopping you from doing what you want.
Goddamn.

It just upsets me how much I want to change the way i live, yet at the end of the day, i'm still living the same life.
Once and for all, can't someone agree with me?
It just really sucks, you know?
All i've ever really wanted is a better life.

I'm just tired.
Just give me what I want okay?
Then I'd be fine.
Shoutout to The Universe.
Thanks.

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Anyways, past few days have been complete bullshit. I've been at home, sleeping all day, and then using the computer all night. Haven't seen the sunlight. I'm back to being a hermit. Isolated and distant. I don't use my cellphone anymore, and I don't go online anymore. I don't know what's up with me. I haven't got much to do this month. I'll probably just waste my days away.

You know what would make me happy?

If I were to go out EACH AND EVERY DAY of this summer.

That would be the fucking greatest.

I miss my tennis lessons. I want to take second batch but we're too broke for that. Geez, i really need some excercise. I miss that feeling I get after excercising, it's such a great feeling. Something of being accomplished and fulfilled. It's really nice. I miss that.

And i've got nothing much to say. I continued my 101 goals in 1001 days list and I exceeded, I went to almost 200 things. I'll be posting them soon. It's really inspiring.

I'm going. I'm just wasting your time, since I've been wasting mine.
God i am so fucking pissed.
I hate watching the seconds go by knowing that they've been wasted.