27

ugh.

stupid date.

it's just a stupid date.

it doesn't mean anything.

it's just like any other day.

GET OVER IT.

I am trying to be okay without you.

But it's been difficult.

I'm sure you saw my letter and my text.

Why won't you reply?

It breaks my heart so much.

So fucking much.

Goooooood. I just want something to distract me, to take most of my time. I want to be involved in something productive. I hate having so much free time.

I JUST WANT TO BE OKAY WITHOUT A FUCKING BOYFRIEND

BECAUSE I KNOW I DON'T NEED ONE.

FUCK, OKAY.

I USED TO BE BETTER THAN THIS.

I KNOW I CAN BE.

I CAN LIVE WITHOUT A BOYFRIEND.

I JUST WANT TO STOP MISSING HIM, BECAUSE I DON'T NEED HIM. I FUCKING DON'T.

GOD I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING VULNERABLE AND WEAK

FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU SO MUCH

I HATE HOW YOU TURNED ME INTO THIS MESS

IT'S LIKE I CAN NEVER FUNCTION WELL ANYMORE

FUCK HAVING A BOYFRIEND. FUCK IT.

FUCK ME FOR BEING SO ATTACHED

FUCK ME FOR LOVING YOU.